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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 10, 2011 19:04:01 GMT -5
She smiled. He wanted to know a bit of her language? maybe he was curious or maybe it was interest, either way, she was not opposed to teaching him a bit of it. "Požalujsta," she told him, giving him the proper response to what she had said. She didn't know if he would even be able to say the word or really any word in her language but she would try to teach it to him anyway if he wanted to know.
Zilya looked away, pressing her lips together to keep from laughing at his statement. He was just so darn cute but what could she do? She couldn't really just get to know him and tell him everything. "You? No," she said, looking back at him with a smile. "You are too much like guy to wear heel. It will look bad, i can't even think of it," she told him, joking as though the though itself would just look so wrong.
It would though. Someone as masculine as Tanner was never going to be able to pull it off and she doubted that he would even be able to stand in it. It wasn't exactly an easy thing to pick up and with the extra height, it did make it difficult. One needed to practice quite a bit and learn to look graceful. Even some of the other models, the ones that were lucky enough to be born as girls, would fall in them every now and then.
Zilya underneath it all, was still a boy, her shoe size was always going to be a lot bigger than the female models but it never really bothered her too much. She had a rather feminine form and it paid off in a way but still, it was one of the things she would always be self-conscious about. At least she had pretty dainty hands though. She had very long fingers but they were slender at least.
"Be random?" she repeated, looking slightly amused. The idea of just letting loose and having fun did appeal to her. She wanted to be able to just be a little crazy and enjoy life but Zilya was used to always being to poised and perfect all the time. She had to be constantly aware of herself, just in case something slipped and the facade was ruined. She couldn't simply relax and have fun.. or least, she hadn't before. "I don't know if I can do that," she admitted with a slight shrug. "I am.. not so much fun," she told him with a smile. She would go with him anyway though and perhaps he might convince her to do something crazy but until then.. Zilya would simply be Zilya.
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Post by tanner on Mar 10, 2011 23:10:55 GMT -5
Tanner listened to her pronounce it and evervything and how she said it and all well it played over and over in his head, because he wanted to give it a shot and say it. He wasn't the best at trying to talk new languages, but he was going attempt i. "Alright so please exuse me if i mess this up." he said and cleared his throat. "Požalujsta" he said the pronounciation was off.
"whoa whoa what was that were you just going to laugh at me?" he asked jokingly with a smirk. he was only teasing her. "Its okay I would laugh at me too..i mean how am i suppose to wear heels when i don't have a really awesome dress and earings..right?" he asked keeping up with it, because he found it to be amusing to her. even though she said he pry wouldn't look good.
Tanner didnt think ever about being a model. Maybe, a male one at that but he could see him messing up the high heels and a dress splitting in so maby directions. Tanner wasn't sure he would even be a good male model most of them were kn of skinny? He was not skinny! He was all muscles.
Tanner had been a thin little boy and people picked on him in the homes and he had seen a lot of crazy shit that was why he buffed up and swore to himself he would stay that way to avoid any further trouble. He didn't mind guys that were skinny that was their choice. Everyone perfered their different body types.
"Yeah, just do something outside the box." he said thinking it sounded cool. Being spontaneous was really fun and he couldn't help but want to try and bring out that side of the girl, because you learned a lot. She said that she wasn't really random or fun though and he doubt. She could let go if she wanted to and it would be awesome! "Im sure thats not true." he said shaking his head. "Im sure we will have tons of fun and you'll surprise yourself." e said with a smile.
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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 11, 2011 1:44:56 GMT -5
Zilya laughed a little at his attempt. it was cute that he would try and she did appreciated it. She nodded at his attempt, "close enough," she said teasing him a little with a smirk. she was sure that her english wasn't good and that she probably pronounced certain words really badly or just not well at all so it wasn't so bad.
Zilya shook her head. it was obvious she had tried not to laugh but she was going to pretend anyway, though the guilty smile was a dead give away. she did laugh though when he mentioned the dress and ear ring. If only he knew... it took a whole lot more than that to pass as a girl, Zilya was well aware of it, she had spent her whole life doing it.
"I can lend you if you want, maybe it will fit," she joked with a smirk. Hell, the sad part was that they probably had the same shoe size or close so really, her heels would most definitely fit the boy. She didn't like that though but it was something she couldn't really change at all.
He seemed nice though, being able to joke about this and she did wonder if he might be okay with her secret. Maybe he wouldn't really mind.. no, she couldn't think that, she hardly even knew him and the fewer people that knew the better. her father hated it and that was bad enough. she didn't need more people hating it too.
Zilya tilted her head slightly as though this were some brand new idea but it wasn't. do something outside the box? her whole entire life was outside the box! she smiled though. "yeah okay, maybe," she said with a smile and a nod, ready to see what there was out there and maybe try something different.
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Post by tanner on Mar 11, 2011 17:52:21 GMT -5
Well, laughter meant he kind of failed. He just kind of laughed it off himself until she said it was close enough. Hey he gave it a shot and well he learned he wouldn't be surviving in Russia anytime soon. "I thought I sounded pro" he joked and grinned slyly over in her direction. He so did ot sound anywhere near, but in time maybe he could figure out something to say to her. Something cool and make it sound legit.
Then all of a sudden the non laugh turned into a full on laugh and he jokingly pouted smoothing out his shirt. "You laugh now...but don't doubt my abilities." he said and ran a hand through his hair trying to act cool. Heck, he was having a lot of fun with her and they hadn't even go too far. It was nice to get to know someone though especially when you both were new. Conqueer the odds together.
"Maybe when you take me to dinner first okay quit trying to get me in a dress before we do this properly." he said trying to sound like an over dramatic woman who wanted a proper date before something crazy happened. They reached the bus and the door opened. "After you miss"
[/b] he said his hand slightly guided upword towards the entranc.e Tanner could be a very serious individual but to an extent he took life with a grain of salt. He really just didn't care too much about a lot and he joked around often to keep from thinking about the stuff he did care about. He had a toughish kind of life, but other people out there had tougher ones, so when they confided in him well he didn't realy judge, because he knew that the person trusted him and he respected that trust. "Pssh maybe...whats tha word even mean its not in my vocab.." he said shaking his head playfully and looked at her. "Window seat or outside miss?" he asked wanting her to pick first, because he didn't want to be rude That wasn't in his nature.[/size][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 11, 2011 21:13:24 GMT -5
"No, it was good but it's okay. If you go to Russia, I can help you," she said. Should he ever get stuck and need to speak Russian, he would know one person who could help straighten things out at least.
Zilya was just glad that this guy was so nice and just so much fun. He was able to laugh at himself and that kind of thing was rare. Zilya just smirked again. "So I have to take you to dinner to get you in a dress?" she said, faking some serious thought. "No, that's not right. You take someone to dinner to get them out of clothes not in them," she said, before slipping out of the seriousness and grinning at him. If she was going to sound like the girl then she could definitely take on the role of the guy.
"spasibo," she said again before walking up into the bus, paying for her ticket and moving further into the bus. "Um.. window," she said, sliding into a seat. This guy was just so polite and Zilya really appreciated it. It wasn't really all that necessary but it was still nice to see.
At least it meant that he was raised well but then that led to the question of why he was here. If he was a perfect gentleman and he did everything right then where was the fault. There had to be something that was wrong, she couldn't be so easily misled to believe he was just an ordinary guy, something had to be there under the surface but Zilya couldn't see what it could possibly be.
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Post by tanner on Mar 12, 2011 3:14:43 GMT -5
That was a plus. He wasn’t sure he would ever make it over to Russia, but if he ever did then he had his trust Zilya lady friend. She was a model there so it was like a triple threat! That would be very cool though not only because she was popular, but because he’d be able to communicate a little bit in a different area and well he hadn’t really had to do much of that here.
Tanner was going to keep going with this because well she went along with it and it was way too funny eventually he was sure she would crack first because well he could keep going for a while. ”Well, in order to see me in the dress you have to take me to dinner..in order to get me out of it..” he trailed of putting a finger up to his chin trying to discover what he should say next. ”That is a different story...I mean I don’t really do that on the first night.” he said doing a girly like tone and shook his head at himself. He was a character.
He smiled. He would try again but not right now it was too soon to butcher it again. He would simply practice to himself before he tried to say you’re welcome again in Russian, because he was already kind of like whatever with his last attempt. ”Alrighty.” he said letting her in before sitting next to her.
Tanner was a level one because well he didn’t have to be here but he kind of was and it was slightly a choice and slightly a push. He guessed Zilya was here for an eating disorder or something because she was thin and most models had that problem they just couldn’t help it. “So have you heard of anything that you might want to see around town that I can show you miss?” he asked wondering if maybe there was somehting cool she might want to do because she heard someone talking about it or something.
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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 13, 2011 1:18:41 GMT -5
Zilya just smirked as he kept going. It was funny at least. "You mean you don't usually do that," she said, insinuating that she had such great skill that he would just have no say about what happened.
Zilya glanced out the window after sitting down. A strange feeling washed over her. She hadn't been in America for long but it had all been horrible. The first four days with her father were the worst and then the next two, practically locking herself in her room, it wasn't great either. She had nothing and no one and was starting to think that she should just learn to live with this but today was different. Today was going really well, all thanks to this boy.
"Oh, no," she said, turning back to him with a smile. "I don't know anywhere so I don't know what to see," she explained. She had no idea what places there were here to see. Though maybe the beach would be a nice place to go to for a little while. She had heard that there was one somewhere here so that might be an idea.
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Post by tanner on Mar 13, 2011 2:11:02 GMT -5
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Tanner only smirked at what she said, because she was really playing her role really well with all of this. Something he could hear someone saying if inded they were cocky and serious at that. "Oh well I'll just have to see about that one." he said turning his head a little acting like he was a diva.
Tanner turned back to see the girl looking out the window. She seemed like she was a little lost in thought so he wouldn't distract her, because sometimes some people needed to think and well a drive did that for a lot a lot of people. He did hope she was alright though and like not afraid of small areas like a bus or whatever. He wasn't going to make assumptions though, because that would get him no where, but if she needed to tal he was sitting right there.
Tanner bit his lip and thought about it for a second. "Well, theres parks, there's a beach, there's a mall.." he said kind of laying those out for her to see what there best bet was because well he didn't want to take her to some place and her be bored even though it was suppose to be random and what not.
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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 13, 2011 2:24:25 GMT -5
Zilya just laughed a little at him pretending to be the girl here. She had always been one, or felt like one but it was still funny to see a bad impersonation of it being done. Zilya even thought like a girl, if there was a way of seeing the brain and knowing it was different for girls and guys, well, it was obvious which one hers would be closer to.
"We will see," she told him with a smirk. There wasn't really any dinner to be had and he certainly would not be prancing around in a dress but it was still funny to go along with it anyway.
Zilya looked sad when she turned back from the window but she didn't say anything. She didn't need to burden him with all her problems, besides, they had only just met and they were here to have fun and so far, he had been good at making her forget all of those bad things that had happened.
Zilya thought about her options as he listed them and smiled. "Maybe the beach will be nice to see," he told him. Yes, that would do. They could go to the beach. That would be fun, the sand, the waves, a bit of warmth from the sun, it could be nice.
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Post by tanner on Mar 13, 2011 3:10:47 GMT -5
Tanner kind of just laughed at himself and the way he sounded, because well he just couldn't help it. "I would make a horrible girl" he said shaking his head some. Most guys would make a horrible girl but there were some guys that kind of perfered that tupe of thing. He himself had never seen it or soe thought, but hey he wasn't judgemental.
When she said she would see he kind of just smiled at that one, because it was amushing how she wantd to get him out of his imaginary dress after their 'dinner'. This was amusing still and he was sure it would be a little inside joke between the two of them. "Yeah I guess we will" he said snapping and crossing his legs looking towards the other side of the aisle.
On her face he could see something really bothering her. Now Tanner wasn't the type to pry, but it would not hurt to ask her if she was alright. "Everything okay?" he asked her in case she suddenly wanted to open up and admit to somethng being wrong. He hoped he wasn't doing anything to bring this on.
She replied that she would like to go to the beach and he smiled. It had been sometime sense he had gone and he was figuring i would be fun. "Alright to the beach we go then." he said knwing they'dstill have to spop and wlk a little bit, but hey it was a ice day to be out there. In his opinion.
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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 13, 2011 5:30:04 GMT -5
"Not everyone can be a girl," Zilya said. She smiled but sounded a little sad like this was something she longed to be. It was of course but she hadn't meant to sound like it. She didn't even realize it and who knew if Tanner might pick up on the subtlest of hints.
"Those in Thailand, I've on the internet, they look very much like girls," she pointed out. It could be dangerous to keep this discussion going but then again, it could be a good gauge to see what he thought abut this kind of stuff. Zilya decided that getting an indication of it was worth the slight risk it posed.
Zilya turned back when he asked if she was fine. "Oh, yes, I'm fine," she told him with a smile but it wasn't quite convincing. So far everyone who had asked had been online and it was so much easier to be convincing when you were typing it instead of saying it.
Zilya just smiled when he agreed to take them to the beach. It wasn't long before the bus got them there. Once off the bus, ZIlya turned back to him, the wind blowing in her hair. It was nice here. "I haven't to a beach in a long time," she told him.
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Post by tanner on Mar 13, 2011 16:57:53 GMT -5
"I guess, you are right."
[/b] he said thinking that the sadness in her tone was only because she was said for him because he couldn't be the girl in this situation and well he didn't reall think she could pull off the whole guy thing,but then he could be wrong. It would be more insulting though if he called her a guy because girls got upset over that kind of shit. Tanner really hadn't paid much attention to guys that looked like girls that whole thing. Not that he ignored them, he just didn't notice? "Well everyone has their own lifestyle you know I mean if thats the way they do it in Thialand that's how they do it I guess." he said careful answering that one, because maybe she liked guys that looked like girls? Plus, he wasn't a judgemental person on top of that one so.. The boy could tell when someone was fine and when they were trying to be fine. He nodded unconvinced. "Well, if you aren't ever fine you know you can talk to me I'm a great listener I mean sometimes I get sidetracked, but I'm a guy so I can't really help it." he said with a smile just being honest. And suddenly the brakes had been applied and he looked outside and smiled. The beach it was a good day for it. He followed her off the bus and watched as her pretty blondish hair swayed in the wind. He kept his smile on, because he couldn't help it. "Me either..lets see what it has instore for us yes miss?'' he asked holding out his arm for her to be an escort if she please.[/size][/blockquote][/blockquote][/blockquote] |
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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 13, 2011 19:14:33 GMT -5
"Same way some people can't be boys," she added, just to throw him off, just in case he happened to pick up on it. She didn't think she could pull off being dressed like a boy now. She knew she should be able to considering she never started on hormones and in every way was still a boy. They had tried it for photo shoots and it never worked fro Zilya. Although she was a boy, she just couldn't pull it off unless she went shirtless and it was obvious what she was.
Zilya considered his words. He seemed in different and she supposed that was a good thing. He wouldn't really mind so much about her then but still, she didn't want to tell him about it. It was like putting the part of her she hated out there for people to see.
Zilya just smiled, thankful for the offer. She wouldn't take it now but maybe next time. Right now they were on a bus on their way out some where and she didn't need to tell him things right now.
Zilya just smiled and nodded when he spoke. This would be fun to explored. She smiled and placed a hand on the offered arm. He was just such a gentleman, it was rare and she appreciated it.
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Post by tanner on Mar 13, 2011 19:45:33 GMT -5
"True" he sid with a small shrug thinking about it. He had never in fact met a girl that wanted to be a boy. That wasn't to say that there wasn't one out there though sure there was pry hundreds of them, but Tanner just hadn't really fell into a crowd where he met one.
He kind of was wondering why though the topic had lasted longer or now why she had brought up the guys in Thialand. He just kind of shrugged it off though because while he cared a lot he was a guy and guys tried not too may too mmuch mind to any one thing.
He saw her smile at the offer and took that as a sense of when she was ready she might actually talk to him. He was okay with that too. Forefulness and pressure never really got anyone far.
Tanner in turned smiled when she put a hand on his arm. He didn't flex it though, because her hand kind of seemed tiny compared to his whole statute and he didn't want to show off. It got silent and he wanted to change that so he looked over at her. "Should we walk or try and build a kick ass Zi-Tan castle?" he asked thinking the name sounded kind of cool.
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Post by zilya alexis raskolnikov on Mar 13, 2011 20:10:05 GMT -5
Zilya decided to just smile and drop the topic. They had discussed it enough by now. Besides, they were going to the beach and that would be fun as well as give them an opportunity to discuss even more thing sin even more detail.
When she put her hand on his arm, she glanced over again. He was just so muscular and hot. How did he even get that way? Zilya figured that if she had stayed being a guy she might have been able to try working out and gaining more muscle but that wasn't going to happen. She was happy being thin and slender and keeping a more feminine form.
Zilya eventually let go of his arm and put her hands in the pockets of the jacket she wore over her tank top. She considered what he had said. "Either way is fine," she told him. "We can try to make sand castle," she decide before sitting down on the ground. That and they could talk as well if they wanted to.
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