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Post by xxtaintedxx on Nov 24, 2010 16:55:41 GMT -5
Kobby grinned at her, taking it out of his pocket only to sprinkle the crumbs on the ground. "I think that might be slightly impossible now..." He said with a little laugh as he listened to her talk. She seemed to be opening up to him, and that made him smile. It was hard to makee friends here, because people were so secretive about everything and he didn't understand it. Everyone here was sick in some kinda way, thats why they were here.
"What happened to you?" he asked her gently, seriously wanting to know. He did, she made him curious and though he knew he migght be out of place asking her Kobby couldn't help himself. When he was having an episode, he said what he thought despite the fact that he might piss someone off.
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Post by victoria hope jean on Nov 24, 2010 17:35:37 GMT -5
Hope looked at the crumbs on the ground and smiled lightly, shaking her head. "I'm sorry." She felt herself opening up more to the boy infront of her. That made her smile; she hadn't been able to open up to a guy in a while. Really, the only guy that she had ever trusted was her brother and that turned to shit. It felt nice. "I should have seen that coming; granola bars are fragile."
When he asked that question, she went silent for a moment. She hadn't really told anyone what happened to her, She'd hardly even told the counselors. But, they were all here for a reason; so why did she hide it from everyone? She looked up at him and finally started talking, "My brother had convinced me to go to a party with him. Everyone there was either getting high or getting wasted. So, later, I went to the bathroom to get away from everything. I opened the door and my brother's best friend pushed me back in..." She stopped for a minute, recalling that night. It had been forever since she'd told anyone what happened; atleast this time she wasn't about to cry. "He raped me. Worst part is, my own brother wouldn't believe that he'd done it. Whenever he came over to the house, he would tease me about my weight and both of them would call me a slut. Eventually, the whole school did it. That lead to hurting myself and not eating." It actually felt nice, to be able to tell someone what happened; to tell someone the full story behind why she was here. She ran her hand over the strings of her guitar and sighed, "One day, my mom found me in my room, cutting myself. I had just got into a fight with my brother. She freaked out and started crying. I never did tell her why I was doing that.. She sent me here, in hopes of getting me back to normal."
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Post by xxtaintedxx on Nov 28, 2010 15:19:29 GMT -5
Kobby listened to her talk, and her story made him angry. Not at her, but of the situation. Kobby could never hurt someone like that, and he didn't understand how someone else could. Especially a girl. Kobby had his problems, as did anyone else but he would never hurt a girl like that. Never even think about it, though he did think about sex and that sort of stuff but the thought of forcing someone to have sex with him? He shook his head gently, then took her hand in his as he watched her.
"I'm sorry that you had to go through that. You shouldn't have to keep a secret like that to yourself Hope" he smiled at her gently before pushing some hair from her face.
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Post by victoria hope jean on Nov 30, 2010 17:59:09 GMT -5
Hope couldn't help but wonder what Kobby was thinking while she told him her story. A movie could probably be made out of her life story. It was easier to tell people here what happened to her. Because they were here for crazy reasons too. If she'd told anyone that back home, they'd freak out and God knows what else. She don't know how she would be able to handle it.
She smiled lightly at Kobby and shook her head, "It's kind of easier to keep it a secret," She said, shrugging her shoulders slightly. And that was true, but she also knew that if she wanted to get better that she would have to tell the counselors what was wrong and what happened to her to actually get help, "It's getting easier, you know, being away from that place."
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Post by xxtaintedxx on Dec 1, 2010 22:18:24 GMT -5
"A lot of things are easier as secrets hope, but that doesn't make it easier for you to deal with it you know?" he grinned at her, and pulled his hand back from her hair, but kept a hold of her hand. He was trying to comfort her, even though he didn't even know this girl. It was alright, everyone needed someone to give them a break sometimes.
"Yeah, It's easier for me being away from my step family but it doesn't help my problem at all. I'm just happier, being away from there is all"
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Post by victoria hope jean on Dec 1, 2010 22:57:36 GMT -5
Hope nodded her head, she knew that it wasn't easier on her, "Yeah, but it doesn't let others worry about me," she said quietly. She didn't like it when people worried about her; sure, they had things to worry about. Her cutting and her not eating, but she hated being watched. It made her feel like an animal in a cage. She smiled at Kobby, he could easily make her smile. He was just so nice.
"Exactly! It doesn't help my problems, but it's good to know that people here aren't going to mock me as bad as they did," She said, nodding her head. She didn't know what compelled her to tell everything to Kobby, but she did without any regrets to it. She felt like she could trust the man holding onto her hand. It felt good to be able to feel like someone was trustworthy for once.
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Post by xxtaintedxx on Dec 2, 2010 0:09:54 GMT -5
"There isn't anything wrong with people worrying about you. My parents didn't worry about me, they just didn't want to deal with me anymore. So now I'm here, and though I wanna get help I wish my parents cared if I got help"
He shrugged when she mentioned being mocked. Kobby didn't so much care what others thought about him, so that didn't bug him but he could understand why someone might care. he wondered if it was worse for her, hence her habit to not eat.
"No one knows you here" He grinned at her, and let his head fall tot he left. "You can be whoever you want"
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Post by victoria hope jean on Dec 2, 2010 19:11:43 GMT -5
Hope nodded her head. She knew there was nothing wrong with people worrying about her, but she didn't want them to. She didn't like it when people would constantly check up on her. It just stressed her out. She really didn't know what to say to Kobby when he said that. Her parents were always on her case about things.
She smiled and nodded when she said that no one knew her here. That's why she loved being here, for now anyway. This place wasn't as bad as people thought it out to be. This school gave them more freedom than most probably would. "That's exactly why I like being here." She could be whoever she wanted to be. She wanted to be known as the girl that was cured; the girl that loved music. "I am being exactly who I want to be.. Or, I'm working at it, atleast."
note: sorry it sucks.
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Post by xxtaintedxx on Dec 2, 2010 19:37:59 GMT -5
Kobby looked away from Hope, and around instead. His body was shaking a little bit with the want to move around. he wasn't good at sitting still, Kobby easily got bored. Sighing gently he stood up and looked down at her.
"Can we walk? I feel like my skin is melting off from sitting here.." he muttered with a bit of a rushed feeling to it. Not that he didn't like the company, but he wasn't calm enough to sit. The wind picked up a little bit, and he shoved his hands in the pocket of his hoodie to keep them from getting cold as he grinned at her.
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Post by victoria hope jean on Dec 4, 2010 21:24:32 GMT -5
Hope smiled at Kobby and nodded her head, "Ofcourse, I'd love to walk, actually," she said. She tood up and grabbed her things before frowning when the wind picked up. Maybe her attire wasn't exactly fit for the day, but she didn't care. She placed her guitar back in its case before placing the strap on her shoulder.
"Where to?" She asked the boy, smiling. She absolutely loved walking. You could walk for hours just thinking about things, and not even care. Well, she could anyway. It wasn't as effective as some things, to get things off her mind, but she tried it every once in a while when nothing else would work. She looked over at Kobby for a moment, studying him. She had almost forgot about his condition, and when she remembered, that's why she was so eager to go walking.
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Post by xxtaintedxx on Dec 4, 2010 22:55:58 GMT -5
Kobby watched her as she got up, and when he noticed her picking up guitar frowned. He hadn't thought about that, and figured that it was probably a little heavy for her to carry around.
He thought about her question for a moment and realized there wasn't anywhere he wanted to go. He just wanted to move, he was getting hyper. He didn't want to be hyper, it was just something that happened. Kobby felt like his mind was doing a hundred different things at the moment and he hoped that walking would help.
"Just to walk is all" He answered with a grin. "can I carry that for you?" He asked, nodded towards her guitar.
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Post by victoria hope jean on Dec 4, 2010 23:40:06 GMT -5
Hope smiled and nodded at him. What a gentleman, no one has really bothered to offer to carry things for her. She took the guitar off of her shoulder and gave it to Kobby, "Thank you," She said, smiling warmly at him. She had really never met someone so nice.
When he'd taken the guitar from her hands, she started walking. To where, she didn't know, nor did she care. She bit her bottom lip and looked up at the blue sky, it made her smile. She loved moments like this, not having a care in the world. Those didn't come often for her.
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Post by xxtaintedxx on Dec 5, 2010 22:37:23 GMT -5
"Why you smiling?" Kobby asked her as they walked. He nudged her gently, to get her attention seeing as she seemed to be gazing off into nothing. He wasn't upset, it was good that she was smiling with what she had been through. He could imagine it must be hard to get back to being yourself.
He grinned at her, before looking in front of him to make sure he didn't run into anything. Her guitar was light for him, it just felt like a back pack to him but he could imagine it might be heavy for her.
"You should smile more often, it's a good look for you"
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Post by victoria hope jean on Dec 6, 2010 17:33:53 GMT -5
Hope looked over at Kobby when he asked her a question, and shrugged her shoulders lightly, "I don't know. I like times like these, feeling like you don't have a care in the world, it's a great day out, and I've just made a wonderful friend," She said, looking over at him with a smile. She looked back ahead of her for a moment, thinking of what to say, "So, Kobby, what do you do for fun?" She figured she might as well ask. Besides, they might have a few things in common.
She felt a light blush come to her cheeks when he said that and smiled again, "Well, thanks," she said, not really knowing what else to say.
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Post by xxtaintedxx on Dec 6, 2010 17:59:40 GMT -5
"I was a sport fanatic, so thats what I do. I love to swim, and thats pretty much what I do when I find myself bored" He shrugged, and moved one of his hands the grasp the strap that was holding Hopes guitar up on his shoulder.
"Thats really about it. I'm hardly interesting. I don't play guitar or anything neat like that" he looked over at her for a moment before looking forward again. He didn't think he was a good friend. when he was at his school, Kobby had only thought about himself. He was trying to get better about that, and he hoped that he was doing good. but still, he couldn't help but think about some of the things he had done to those he called friends.
"And I might surprise you by how good of a friend I'm not Hope" he said with a dark tone. "I haven't always been the way I am now, just know that alright?" He didn't want her to expect to much from him. She would get hurt, and she had been through enough already.
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