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Post by willow jayden shae on Jan 10, 2011 23:50:38 GMT -5
Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me I stared at the computer screen, my hands shaking. I couldn't handle it anymore. My head throbbed so much that i wanted to scream. I closed my eyes trying to calm myself. I felt so angry, so hurt, so confused. I took a shaky breath and stood, then looked around my room resting my gaze on my sleeping roommate.I hated this feeling...like i was caged up. (which in a way was true.) I needed to get out of this place...i had told Ty and the others in the chat that i was going on a walk. I would do that, but i don't think i would come back. I didn't care if i would be searched for..i just wanted out. Now.
I grabbed my bag and started packing. I made sure it was small and dark, and that it only could hold the things that were necessary. I grabbed my Locket, and put it on, a small bit of sadness hitting me as i did so. As i reached for the door. What was i doing? was it the right thing. 'No.' I shook my head, i wanted to turn around, and just plop back on my bed, and sleep off my feelings. Another part of me was saying to go, and get the hell out. 'Just leave already.' Without even thinking i opened the door and bolted out.
It was pretty easy to sneak out, i had done it plenty of times when the kids here decided to throw parties. I felt a bit guilty for just leaving like this. I took out my phone, i wanted to call Ty, but he would just try to stop me. I decided texting him would be easier, since i didn't have to hear his voice. I stared at the small screen, thinking of what i could possible say. Moments passed before i began.
I'm sorry Ty,I didn't mean to snap at you.
I...i can't handle this anymore. I can't stay.
I'll always love you.
~Will.
I could feel the tears stingy and threatening to pore out, and clenched my eyes shut. It took forever for me to press send, but at last i did.I could feel something tear at my heart as i did so. I didn't want to leave him, but i had to, he made it clear that i did. The words still fresh in my mind. 'I love you Will..i really do, but i can't stand to be around her.' I didn't want to show it, but those words hurt me. I couldn't get rid of her. What was he going to do when she came back. Just leave me? I was trying to tell myself that he wouldn't do that, but it was useless..the thought was stuck in my head. I shook my head and turned of my cell, that way if he called he would get my voice mail..and i wouldn't have to face him.
I clenched my fist, and ran for it, opening doors, dodging things that got in my way. It was all a blur, and the next thing i knew i was in the garden collapsing onto the ground. I sat there for a moment trying to catch my breath, the cold crisp winter air blowing my hair around. I shivered, and got up, but staggered. Alli needed was to get out.
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me
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Post by ty on Jan 25, 2011 23:51:10 GMT -5
  Ty was lounging around in his room. He was thankful that no one was near him, otherwise they would be suspicious. His roommate was out and about, he actually hadn’t met him yet. He was either passed out before he got there, or it was too late for the boy to be actually up. He looked over at his phone that was on his bedside table, charging as it vibrated. He picked it up and opened it. Seeing that it was from his sister her smiled. Of course it was Willow and not Lilly he was good. Lilly hated him, but you couldn’t fully blame her. I'm sorry Ty,I didn't mean to snap at you.
I...i can't handle this anymore. I can't stay.
I'll always love you.
~Will. Ty freaked. His sister was going to leave? As in leave Hawthorne of kill herself. Fuck, Fuck, Fuck. He didn’t need this. He just got reunited with her again. He sat at the edge of his bed with his head leaning down and on his hand. He quickly stood up and stormed out his door. He quickly ran down the stairs just in time to see the door slam open from Willow. ”Willow!” he yelled as he followed her out. As he ran behind her a few feet he noticed that she was making her way towards the gardens. He saw her fall down for a minute and she just sat there. He walked over to where she was sitting and as she stood up he pulled her to him. Wrapping his arms around her torso, pulling her in close. ”Willow it will be fine. Things will work out” he said as he buried his head into her shoulder. He was still breathing quite heavy from the running down the multiple flights of stairs and out to the gardens. WORDS ;; 300ish STATUS ;; Finished TAGGED ;; willow OUTFIT ;; hereNOTES ;;
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Post by willow jayden shae on Feb 3, 2011 23:36:10 GMT -5
 you heard that i was trouble ,
BUT YOU COULDN'T RESISTJ U S T T A K E A B I T E L E T M E S H A K E U P Y O U R W O R L D- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Willow heard Ty's voice behind her, a small smile formed on her face. The next thing she new, she was in his arms. She closed her eyes. He was warm, and for a second she had almost forgotten everything that was running though her mind lately. Then like a flash her comfort was gone when he spoke. A glower spread across her face, and she sighed in annoyance. In a sudden movement she pushed Ty away."There you go again!" She yelled, her anger consuming her. "Always with the ' Everything will be fine Will.'" She glared at him. "Why are you always so fucking optimistic?!" She made sure her yelling wasn't to loud, just loud enough for her to edge off her anger.
"You even said you cant be around Jay, well guess what! I cant control her!" She pointed at her temple, and got in his face a little. She pushed him again, not entirely aware of her actions. "Lilli hates us both, and will most likely always hate us, Alex is god know where! You still have a patchy memory! And well i'm just messed up as all hell!" She shoved him away with each problem she listed.
"And you little idea that we all will get out and be happily living together?" She laughed bitterly. "Do you really think i'm going to be coming with?! No! Cause i'm probably gonna get sent to a loony bin after this place!" By the time willow finished her little rant she was out of breath, she looked down at the icy ground. "How can you stand this Ty?" She asked, her voice quiet. "All i ever do, and will ever do is cause you more trouble." She looked at him. Fear was in her eyes. "The more your around me, the more chances you have of getting hurt." Her voice cracked at the end. "I don't want to get you hurt Ty..if she hurt you. If i ever lost you..i don't know what i'd do." By she Willow of course meant Jay. No matter how many times Ty had reassured her. She still worried like hell about him..
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Post by ty on Feb 6, 2011 3:34:10 GMT -5
Ty looked down at her when she pushed him away. He didn’t know what to do, he had just been reunited with his sister, and found out a bunch of stuff. Stuff basically the main important things that he lost from his memory. As he listened to her he realized that he had always told her that everything will be fine. No matter what the situation was. He flinched slightly at her yelling, but she was being rather quiet. Probably not to attract attention to them. He shut his eyes when she said that she couldn’t control Jay. But it wasn’t his fault that Jay had attacked him either. It wasn’t like he knew about her two personalities then. ”Will, I say it because its fucking true. Everything will work out. No matter the circumstances. We will get through this together. And fuck Lilli, she’s a bitch, and she probably won’t change” he said after she had finished pushing him. He wanted to convince her that he was right. ”You don’t cause me trouble. And if you do, its my own fault, you are my sister. Because aren’t little sisters supposed to complicate their big brother’s lives?” he asked. He was partially joking, but partially serious. ”She won’t ever push me away from you. I’ll always be here, I’m your brother” he said as he looked into her eyes. WORDS ;; 250ish STATUS ;; Finished TAGGED ;; willow OUTFIT ;; hereNOTES ;; sorry its shit
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