Love like winter. (Alex)

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

Taking a nap was absolutely out of the question now. It hadn't even helped one bit. I was growing tired of this headache, it had been going on for days. Now naturally someone would go to the infirmary if they were experiencing this, but me, no i didn't think about it to much until now. But i wasn't going to go get "help" They would probably send me off with some advice to ice my head, and if that doesn't work, then i should come back. Ha..they wouldn't dare hand over medicine to a kid like me. I shook my head, but regretted it at once. The throbbing pain pounding restlessly. I sighed and sat up from my bed. I turned on the light and went in to look in the mirror. I rubbed under my eyes, then let my fingers trail down to my jawline. I traced my fingers against the four inch white scar. I winced at the memory. I hated this scar, yet i loved it. It reminded me of why i was this way, it made me remember that stupid gang Ty joined. Reminded me of being raped. Why would i love such a thing? It caused me to remember painful, and happy memories. It was one thing that helped me stay human, and not give in to Jay.

My head pounded once again, as if someone were playing drums on my brain, and it was the drum-set. I closed my eyes. Maybe Ty had something, Alcohol, drugs, anything to help me ease off the pain. It wasn't likely though, that he would give me drugs, he may be addicted to them himself, but i'm sure he wouldn't want to give his little sister anything. It was worth a try though...i would rather go to my brother before any other random addict i didn't know. I would be fine with just a cigarette. Hopefully he would give me at least that.

I sighed and walked out of the dorm, silently making my way to the east wing. I felt doubt still about my last conversation with Ty. I wasn't as optimistic as him. I didn't think that Lilli would return to us, and love us again, i didn't think Alex would arrive, and i sure as hell didn't think we were getting out of this shit-hole. At least i wasn't..my condition was much worse, i wouldn't be surprised if they send me to the loony bin after a while. I finally arrived at dorm 2, i sighed, "Here goes nothing." I knock on the door. "Ty? You in there?" I bite my lip, and wait for a reply.

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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tagged; Alex Ray Sanders
word count;472
notes; Muse ish high ^^
oufit; Clicky!
listening to; Love is dead- Kerli

[alexx]

Alex had just finally gotten to this stupid school. He hated school, it was one of the good things about being a runaway. He didn't exactly go to school. It wasn't that he was stupid, he just didn't like doing such easy crap. But here he was doing the same shit all over again.

Why did he have to go home? Why did he have to want to see his parents? He couldn't just be the usual bad kid who relented there folks. Nope, he had never thought of them as bad parents, they were his only parents and good ones.

No his problems were the fault of his own stupidity. His own drive to be the bad kid. The drive to not be good all the time. He changed his look and tried a few drugs and got hooked. It was hard not to be hooked. Drugs were made to do that to people. To ruin everything.

So in some deep need to gain his parent's he went home and now he was here. Those fucked up peice of shit parents of his. He was in the midst of unpacking when the door opened. He hadn't yet ran into his roommate, so he was clueless that it was his old friend.

Wondering who it was he turned towards the door and saw Willow. He would know her from a mile away. Yup, a mile. She was his best friend. Or well it seemed like that sometimes. Ty? Blinking he shook his head. How could it be that the one place he get sent both Ty and Willow were here.

"Willow," he said with a mixture of confusion but still a little happiness. It wasn't like seeing Willow again was bad. No it was good. Just strange.

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

I didn't expect to see who i saw at all. So when i opened the door, i was shocked as all hell. I mean, ya Ty had said Alex would end up here eventually or something, but i hadn't actually thought it would happen. I just stood there like an idiot, my mind completely blank. He was actually in front of me. My best friend, the guy that i had, or even still had a major crush on. I wasn't entirely sure what to do. Part of me wanted to walk up and kiss him (though i knew that would be extreme) Another part of me wanted to bolt out of the room. I didn't know why, but this startled me. It was weird that he was actually here. I thought it had been odd that Me, Ty, and Lilli were all here, but now Alex?

I mentally shook myself out of my shock, and did the next thing that came to my mind. I walked up to him, and hugged him. I didn't care if he was in the middle of unpacking, or if he didn't like being hugged. I was going to hug him. I closed my eyes. I was still speechless, but i knew i had to say something soon. After a moment i finally opened my mouth. "God..i missed you so much." I stepped back, and stared at him. His face was still the same, Perfect. I couldn't tell what my feelings were, mixed emotions i guess. The shock still hadn't left. Plus i was happy and sad at the same time, but also confused. I didn't like it, but i didn't want to care about it. My best friend was here, maybe i wouldn't go insane.

I took a deep breath, this was really happening..i honestly needed to realize that i wasn't going to wake up as if it were a dream. "So, i'm guessing you haven't met with Ty yet..." I bit my lip, i didn't know how Ty would react. Possibly with a ' I told you he would arrive Will.' Then it hit me, Ty didn't remember all that much, except what i could fill in for him. I had half a mind to tell Alex about his memory loss, but i thought twice before doing so. It was Ty's business to tell him..not mine.

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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tagged; Alex Ray Sanders
word count;i dont even know...
notes; Muse ish high ^^
oufit; Clicky!
listening to;Atmosphere - Trying To Find A Balance

[alexx]

The fact that he'd meet Willow and Ty again had crossed his mind in the past. He always wanted to find the again. But he never thought it would be here. No, when his parent's drove him to this place, he thought he'd never find them anytime soon. That he'd lose his chance at getting reunited. It seemed kind of coincedental that he'd be rooming with Ty, and that Willow would happen in here at the right moment. It made him happy, but kind of a little scared. But he'd never admit it, not even to himself.

He wrapped his arms around her in a more than friendly embrace. He had loved her, or he thought he did anyway. Just never wanted to admit it, afraid to ruin there friendship. When they got split up, he worried for along time. Wondering where she was or how she was doing. He looked for her, tried over and over and failed every time. And it hurt him to realize he failed at protecting her. But here she was, healthy, or as healthy as possible. Alive, that's what mattered and when she stepped back he smiled at her. "I missed you too Will."

It was still strange to know that he was rooming with Ty. Odd, in a kind of good way. But still he wasn't sure what his old friend thought about him, and he didn't want it to be bad. But if it was, he wasn't sure how well he could handle that. "No I haven't," he admitted going back to his bag and taking stuff out of it. "I honestly didn't expect either one of you to be here. Let alone both."

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

I still regretted letting go of him, i wanted to stay in that embrace we had. I felt safe in his arms, and had always felt safe around him, i loved him, yes i knew that. I just never wanted to tell him. That was when i was scared of commitment, scared of getting to close to anyone. Though when we were separated, i regretted very much not telling him. I thought i would never see him again, and now here he was. I kept my mouth shut about it though..it didn't seem like the right time to talk about it.

I smiled happily when he said he missed me too. I was very glad to hear that. I didn't know what i was expecting him to say, but as long as he missed me.
I smiled and looked out the window, the snow wasn't falling as hard today, it was actually nice out. "He'll be happy to see you." I say happily, but then i frown, Ty wou8ld be happy to see Alex, but he didn't remember all of their past together. "H-he's a bit different though." I say looking down, and playing with my locket. Which Alex had given me awhile ago.

I looked back up at Alex who had begun to unpack again. "Trust me, i didn't either." I shook my head., " Ty, you.....even Lilli." I shook my head, my thoughts going over what had happened with Lilli. She hated me now, she thought everything was my fault, along with Ty's. I sat down on Ty's bed, and began to rub my scar again. "Its been so confusing Lately." I say silently.

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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tagged; Alex Ray Sanders
word count;almost 300
notes; Sorry its a bit shitty..
oufit; Clicky!
listening to; N/A

[alexx]

Alex wanted her back in his arms again, back with her. He missed the old days, they were always so easy. The two of them together, forever. Or so he thought it would be like that. He wanted it to be like that, he still did. He wished he could rewind time and make sure they stayed together. Didn't get seperated, maybe neither one of them would be here if they weren't seperated. But it was way too late to change the past, so instead he decided to move on.

He wanted to tell her, over and over again how much he wanted her. How much he loved her. But he was still afraid to ruin the peace and tranquility they used to have. The easy going nature they shared. He wanted that back. He'd do anything for that back.

He watched her and followed her gaze out the window. He smiled a little, "Yeah. I'd like to see him again." He shrugged, Ty was his friend before Will. His first actual friend, but then well he met Willow. She was his best friend, but he still cared for Ty. Yes Alex could seem like a sarcastic jerk most of the time. But he was human, and he had feelings and he had friends. He wasn't some antisocial moron or anything. He was a druggie, that was it.

Sighing he looked at her, "Different? How?" He wasn't exactly sure what she was talking about. Different. How different' could Ty actually be?

He looked up from his bag and stopped backing, he smiled. "Lilli? She's here too?" Now that he didn't see coming either. He didn't exactly get along with Lilli, nto like he did Will and Ty. But really. She was here too. This was way weird. He moved over to her and sat down, "Confusing how Will?" He didn't like seeing her like this, it made him want to do whatever he could to make a smile come across her face.

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

I bit my lip and looked down when Alex asked how he was different. It was to late to say, 'Oh never-mind..i'm sure he'll tell you himself.' No i couldn't do that. I sighed and searched for my voice. "When those gang members....raped me." I paused for a moment, "Ty tried to help me. Well they didn't like that so much." I shook my head, and then raised a hand to push back my bangs. "After they were done they beat him. And i mean hard. He couldn't remember a thing." I looked at Alex my eyes full of sadness. I still blamed myself for it, even though i knew it wasn't my fault. "When we found each other here, i had to tell him who he was, what his past was like." I closed my eyes. "He may know now, but i can tell he's not the same."

I sat there silently for a few minutes, not really thinking about anything. When reacted to Lilli being here i grimaced slightly. "Yes she is, and she hates me." I looked down, why did i have to make the mood so sad. I wanted to smile, but knew i couldn't. It would be to hard to smile when i felt like this.' I should be happy. Alex is here..why am i not happy?' I shake my head and look at Alex. "everything seems like it should be coming back together now that Ty and Lilli are back, even you now. But its just.." I looked at the floor and frowned. "Lilli thinks everything is my fault, and hates me an Ty. So every time i see her, or talk to her, we fight. And i don't want that. I have to hide things from Ty, because if i tell him that Jay is bothering me, he'll get upset and want to leave, because she tried to kill him! And now your here. And i just don't need to hide anything from you either.." I took a deep breath unsure if i made any sense. I stood and faced Alex. I didn't know what i was doing, but i liked it. I took his face in my hands. " I have been holding back for to long." I sighed. " Alex i love you." I leaned forward and kissed him softly on the lips. The warmth of his skin made my heart flutter. And for ounce i felt relieved.

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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tagged; Alex Ray Sanders
word count;450ish
notes;bahahahahaha! i couldn't wait any longer.
oufit; Clicky!
listening to; Panic! at the Disco; Time to Dance

[alexx]

Alex frowned slightlly as he processed what she said, it made sense he guessed. He didn't really know anything about memory loss or anything. But it seemed to make sense, that he'd forget all he could after after almost dieing it just somehow clicked in Alex's brain. So he nodded at her, not exactly sure how to respond to his old friend not remembering anything about him or Will or well anything. He felt bad, and he didn't know what he'd do if he was in Ty's position and he really didn't want to think about it at all. So instead he just watched Will silently.

He wanted to comfort her so bad, he just had no idea exactly how. He wasn't sure how much Will changed since the last time they saw each other. So he just listened, let her vent, it seemed the only right thing to do. He also couldn't relate to any of this. He was an only child. He didn't have any brothers or sisters that would blame things on him. But he wanted to pull her close and tell her everything would be fine.

He felt her hands on his face and he was slightly surprised, but he liked the way this seemed to be going. He was ready to say that he loved her too, but before he could open his mouth to say the words, her lips were on his. It wasn't that he was complaining, but he was startled only for a second, and then he kissed her back with a passion he seemed to be hiding. Saving expecially for this moment in time.

He pulled away slightly, "I love you too Will."

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

My heart skipped a beat when Alex kissed back, a smile came upon my lips, and i laughed as he parted to say he loved me back. My eyes were filled with joy, hell if you looked at my face all you would see was just plain happiness. "You have no idea how long I've been wanting to say that." i say before kissing him again, with more passion this time. I wrapped my arms around his neck. This felt right, being in this embrace with him. I knew i did the right thing, and for once i wasn't thinking about the bad things in life. This would work out, we would be together, and all of us would get out of this hellhole in no time. I parted the kiss again and rested my forehead against his, closing my eyes, i smiled.

"I think sir, that you just made my day." I say with a slight giggle. I looked into his eyes, and smiled. He made me calm and i liked it he settled my doubts, and made all my unhappiness wash away when i was around him. It would be like the old days, only..we wouldn't have to hold back our feelings for each other.

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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tagged; Alex Ray Sanders
word count;i don't even know
notes; Sorry its so short :/
oufit; Clicky!
listening to; N/A

[alexx]

Alex was actually glad that this wouldnt' ruin the friendship they had. That his reasons of not saying it before seemed really stupid at that moment in time. He normally wasn't so fearful, but Willow was the best thing that happened to him. So why would he want to ruin it when saying something she might not feel back. But here they were, she felt the exact same way. And they were together again. Life was all good for once. "I think I know exactly," he said smiling and kissing her back and wrapping his arms around her wasit holding her to him. Like this, he couldn't think of anything sad or stupid. It was just too perfect.

"I think you've made mine," he said with a grin. He looked up deep into her eyes, and was very happy to not have to hide anything. He was ready to go out and do something fun, to do something that the two of them would of done if they weren't here stuck in some stupid school getting 'help.'