Lose yourself --Ty

[willow jayden shae]

I knew something had gone wrong when i woke up with my face smooshed against the foamy floor of the isolation room. My head ached like i had been pounded in the head dozens of times, and my mouth had the flavor of copper in it. I reached up to touch my nose, and winced immediately, there was dried blood that had previously came from my nose. I groaned as i sat up, the small movement made my head throb. "What did you do now Jay?" I say out loud instead of thinking it. I kept my eyes shut, hoping it would ease the pain. 'I did nothing...well, i barely did anything.' 'could you speak any louder?'i ask, wincing 'why yes i can! But i wouldn't really call it speaking.' I groan again with annoyance.

I started to remember what happened a little more. Seeing as how i wasn't in control at the time, it was harder to remember. Jay had gotten upset with someone, probably one of her informers, she loves to know everything that's going on. What rumors are spreading, all that crazy jazz. Next thing you know she and the other chick were rolling on the ground wailing at each other. took a few people to pull Jay off the poor girl. That's how i got here i guess.

'Can you ever have a little control over yourself?' 'Hmmm, let me think..no. Why should i? She wasn't listening to me.' 'You always have had a thirst for dominance.' The door suddenly open, but it wasn't to let me out, looked like someone was being put in. I sighed, and waited to see who it was.


Notes; Bleh...so sorry its a crap post!

[ty]

Ty staggered into the hallways that the people were leading them through. Nothing like a great brawl the night before, along with some alcohol to make the fight a little better. Ty was both high and drunk. The drinking had continued long after the fight, after all they needed to celebrate right?

That's when the cops showed up. Sending all the kids that hadn't been arrested before to Hawthorne, and the rest back to jail. Something about underage drinking was mentioned in the cars that they were all forced in. He smiled as they pushed him into a room. It was padded. What did they think he would hurt himself. That's highly unlikely. He didn't hate himself, he hated the rival gangs.

He noticed there was a girl in here with him. Isolation, with multiple people in a room? That made no sense. He didn't care. He leaned against the wall and collapsed. Leaning his head on his hands that were rested against his knees. Leave it to the gang to get caught partying, but not in a gang war.

WORDS ;; 150ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

I looked up to see who was put in here with me, which i found very confusing. Maybe they forgot about me. I couldn't believe what i saw when i did look up. My eyes widened a little, and there was a serge of energy that ran through me, my heart almost stopped.

I stared at my brother for the first time in years, he may have grown taller, and matured in his looks, but i knew it was my brother in an instant. I stared at him, wide eyed, as i stumbled on what to say. "I..are?...I-is.." My voice faltered, and i looked down, trying to hold back the tears. What could i say? I was in shock.

I sigh, and look back up regaining control over my emotions. My brows furrow as i slowly find my voice. "Ty? Tyberious Shae? Is..that really you?" It sounded like a cheesy line in a movie, but my brain felt like mush, i had not a clue of what to say. Part of me was so happy to see him, and part of me felt angry. It confused me a little.

Outfit!

[ty]

Ty looked up when the girl began talking. What the fuck was she on to be stuttering that bad. She looked familiar, but he couldn't put a name with the face, but it seemed like he should know. Ty rubbed his head. She wasn't helping his massive drunk headache/start of a hangover.

"So you've heard of me?" he said before returning his head back to his hands. No one had called him Tyberious in years. 3 years to be exact, since Willow. Was this girl Willow? There was no way that his sister was here, she should be with Alex. He should be looking out for her.

Ty let his head back up and hit the padded wall behind him. Please don't let this girl be Willow. If she was here it would be bad news. At least then that would mean Alex was here right?

WORDS ;; 150ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

I wasn't in shock anymore, the fact that i had finally found my brother had finally soaked in. Not that i really found him so to say. I grew curious to why he was here? What had he done to get sent here? He was in a gang..somewhat could explain part of it. But did he kill someone like i did...like jay did? I wanted to ask, but his question interrupted me. It confused me, didn't he remember me at all?

My face was quizzical, then i laughed a little and stood up. "Of course I've heard of you." I shook my head, my face slightly confused. "I think i would know about my own brother." My face showed that i was deep in thought. Why would he ask that. We were like two peas in a pod, we stuck together like glue. Well until that night happened. I shudder at the memory. He had been hit really hard...probably got beaten up after for trying to interfere. I didn't change all that much in my appearance, except the tattoo's and piercings.

I felt a sting in my heart, what if he has no idea who i am, does he even remember Lillian. Oh Lillian...i almost forgot about her. I felt terrible for it too. My eyes filled with tears. "You don't remember do you Ty? Do you even know who i am? Do you recognize me?" What once was sadness, turned to anger. I spoke with such force, i stepped closer. I couldn't believe it. Ty had no memory of me did he?

[ty]

Ty looked at her when she laughed. Then as she stood up he put his head back again. Great! What was she going to do now. Wait. She's Willow? He was trying to remember what Willow looked like, he couldn't do it. He once again put his head in his hands. Didn't they have another sister to? Lil, or something like that.

"Willow? Really, is it really you? Why the hell are you here?" he asked. He didn't want his sister here, but how could he stop her. His gang made him forget who she was, what she looked like, and why she wasn't with him. They also made him forget why Lil was with them. The therapist that first talked to him when he got there said it could be his brain just trying to protect him. Making him forget everything that hurt him, and he was also using drugs and alcohol to help that.

"Its not my fault! Wil, I wasn't the one that did this to myself. I don't fucking know anything about my past" he said as she started at him. He stood up against the wall. He moved closer to her and put his hands on her shoulders. "Don't blame me for any of this" he said while he removed his hands from her shoulders and turned towards the wall. What could he do?

WORDS ;; 250ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

I stared at Ty with a blank expression...he definitely didn't recognize me. I shook my head, "Why i'm here doesn't matter right now." I listened at what he said, and my heart sank deeper. He didn't remember anything? How could he not remember!

My anger grew and shoved him. "How can you not remember!?" I was furious, my eyes were tearing up from being so angry. "After all we've been through together! You can't just forget that Ty! Are you still with that gang? Huh? Did they tell you to move on, that i was dead?' I got in Ty's face, just inches from it. I never knew i could get so angry. I usually tried to hold it in, but i guess this was to much.

I backed away, when Ty touched my arms, "Don't touch me!" I shook my head and looked down, tears were running down my cheeks, the memories coming back to me. How i struggled, and fought, trying to get away from the gang. I was screaming Ty's name, but he was taking a beating for trying to help me. I winced as the memory played in my head. I looked back at Ty, anger running through my veins, i turned him around roughly, and before i could think i slapped him as hard as i could across the face. I was almost sobbing now. "How could you forget that they raped me?"

[ty]

Ty shook his head. He didn't understand his sister anymore. She had changed. She wasn't the same Willow that he knew. She obviously held a lot of anger towards him. He began shaking. He didn't need this right now, he was coming off a high, and getting a hangover. Isolation was so much fun. He rolled his eyes.

"Why my little sister is in this hell hole doesn't matter! Are you fucking serious?" he yelled back at her. His back hit the wall after she shoved him. Willow would never had done this. How could he forget? He didn't know how to answer that himself. He didn't know how his brain worked, but the therapists had an idea.

"Willow. I'm with the same fucking gang because they'll kill me. They stated it that night. If I left because of you, they'd kill me. They fucking almost did anyways. I can't remember anything before that night because of them. They beat me because I fucking stood up for you. I tried to fucking save you." he yelled back as she got in his face.

As soon as he touched her shoulders she pushed him away and backed away. The gang raped her. That's what they did that they wouldn't tell him. "Are you fucking serious? Will how many times do I have to fucking tell you. I can't remember anything, its not my fault, ask the fucking therapists that examined me. They said my brain shut out my memories to protect myself. The near death experience didn't help either" he said before moving towards her. He went to hug her, but knew it wouldn't go well. He had probably lost all the family he had because of things he couldn't control.

WORDS ;; 300ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

I began to cry even more when Ty yelled back. We were falling apart. "I don't want to talk about it!..I-I can't!" I could tell Jay found this fight amusing, i was her little pet, her toy she used for entertainment.

I gasped slightly when i heard what Ty had said, it didn't really surprise me that they threatened him. I took a ragged breath, and shook my head. I had nothing to say to it, i almost felt ashamed for yelling at him, but something inside me kept me angry. i just wanted to hug him and tell him i was sorry for yelling at him, and that i was glad to see him, but i couldn't.

My face twisted in pain, when he spoke again, i didnt know what to do, i had nothing to say, but i needed to hit something, all this anger building inside me, i was becoming a monster, i was turning into Jay. This is what she wanted, but i couldn't allow it. I stepped back when Ty got closer, not because i didn't want a hug, but because if he came any closer, i would be to tempted to hit him. My hands shook, and i balled them into fist.

I closed my eyes, and took a deep breath, but it didn't work. I didn't know what to do, i had to hit something. In a flash i turned and punched the wall as hard as i could, i probably broke something, but i didn't care. I swore loudly, and turned back to Ty, leaning against the wall. I looked at him my face full of despair. "I'm so sorry." It was all i could say. i wasn't going to let Jay tear us apart. I loved Ty more than anything.

I

[ty]

Ty saw her begin to break down. He didn't know what he could do to help her. They were being torn apart. His gang, and her anger were getting the best of them. They were like twins. Fuck, everyone thought they were twins.

"Will, we need to talk about what happened. It will hurt you, but I need to know what happened." he said as she pushed him away. He then watched as she went and punched the wall. She then leaned against the wall.

He moved towards her. Hopefully she got her anger out. He moved forward, this time not letting her even be able to push him away. He wrapped his arms around her and leaned his head into her shoulder. "Will it will be ok" he whispered into her ear.

WORDS ;; 150ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

My breath was shaky, i new this would come, i had to tell him everything. Our past. "I know. I-i'll explain." I shut my eyes, and then opened them, i watched as Ty came towards me, this time i let him hug me. I wrapped my arms around him, and rested my head upon his chest. I soaked in the warmth, a small smile coming to my lips. "i know it will." I lied, but on the inside..i knew it wouldn't be until i got rid of Jay. I knew she would stop at nothing till we were torn apart.

I don't know how long we stood there in that embrace, but it was a long time. I stepped back, and sighed. My story was about to begin. "Well, since you don't remember anything from when we were young, lets start there." I explained, with as much detail as i could, what our childhood was like, i told him how close we were, and how much i hated seeing Ty get hurt every night. I told him about lilli, and about how our mom walked out on us.

My voice faltered at the next part. "O-one day..you and Lilli were gone, i don't know where you were. Dad had came home drunk. i hadnt expected him to be there so early." Tears welled up in my eyes, and i tried not to break into sobs. "I was making supper, when he came behind me. I could tell he was drunk and tried to run for it, b-but he g-grabbed my shirt, and ripped it." I took a ragged breath. "He threw me down...a-and got all touchy." I couldn't say that he molested me, i knew Ty would understand what i meant, but i wouldn't say it. "You and lilli came home while he was doing it...i'll never forget your face." I smiled slightly, and looked at Ty gratefully. "You, grabbed his vodka bottle, and smashed it on his head. But when dad lunged at you, he didnt notice the broken bottle you were holding." I looked down, "After we realized he was dead, you took me and lilli, and we ran away." I began to cry even more. "i always thought it was weird why he never hit me or Lilli, he beat you when you were at least ten, but me..he never touched." I shivered in disgust.

I told Ty of how we spent our time on the streets, and then how he got into the gang. "It could just save us Will. Thats what you said." I sighed shaking my head, "I stayed away from the gang as much as possible, and we always met when you were alone. Poor Lilli, she was a good looking girl." I shook my head. "They whored her out on the streets, i never saw her again." It was terrible, i thought as Lilli as my own daughter, i practically raised her from birth.

I Winced when i got to the next part. "One day we met each other, we were going to leave, and you were going to leave without the gang knowing. But then they followed you, and when they saw me..they were interested." My tone was bitter, and angry i was sitting on the floor by now. 'i had told them to fuck off, but apparently feisty girls were their favorite. You tried to help me, b-but they held you back, and i was rapped."

My face twisted up, i was going to tell Ty about Jay, but my head started pounding. 'Don't you dare tell him, or i swear i will stop at nothing until Ty is dead, you hear? You mention me and he's dead.' My eyes widened, and i looked down, hiding my face. "Well, me and Alex stayed with each other, but were separated at one point." I took a deep breath, the ending was a little sketchy, and it didnt sound like it was finished, but i stopped talking.

[ty]

Ty watched as she backed up after their hug. He moved over to one of the corners of the small room and sat down. As soon as she started her story he put his head in his hands. How could so many bad things happen to their family? Why not someone else.

Ty closed his eyes and leaned his head back. "I truly thought that it would save us Will, we had nothing else" he said as he continued listening. Lillie, he hadn't seen her in probably five years. Not that he would recognize her when he saw her. If he ever got to see her again. Right now their only family that they had were each other and Lillie. If only Lille would be home.

"Where is Alex? How did you two get separated?" he asked. He didn't believe that Alex would just leave her. They were basically dating. Best friends, like siblings, only closer. Ty could tell something was wrong. Why couldn't she tell him though. They were siblings, they should be able to share everything.

"Whats wrong Willow. There's something your not telling me." he said as he opened his eyes again. He was looking at her, something was off. Not normal, but with their past could it ever be normal?

WORDS ;; 215ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

We have to find a better way
- - - Out of this tragedy - - -
As the battle rages on

My ears hear only screams
- - -This war is ours. - - -
Yes, I will see you,Through the smoke and flames

"i know you only thought for the best. It's not your fault, blame those protective instincts." I smiled slightly, but it faltered when he asked about Alex. It pained me to think of him, i...i guess you could say i loved him. i missed him everyday, wondering where he is.

I had truly missed him. "I-i don't know...some things happened, and we..just lost contact." It broke my heart to lie to Ty, and to tell the truth..i was terrible at it. Jay was displeased by it, and went on with countless insults. I shook my head when Ty asked me what was wrong.

I shook my head, and closed my eye's "I-it's nothing..I'm not hiding anything." I didn't look up at Ty knowing my eyes would give away that i wasn't telling the truth.

On the frontlines of war
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tagged; tyberious alexander shae
word count;169
notes; N/A
outfit; Clicky!
listening to; Escape the Fate- Issues

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[ty]

Ty smiled when Willow smiled. It made him feel good that she could still smile. But as soon as he asked his questions her face dropped. Something happened between Alex and Willow. He knew that much. What had happened that changed Willow so much? Ty didn't know, he wanted to find out though.

"Are you sure? " he asked as he finally put his legs down on the floor. He crossed his legs and sighed. How long was he going to be stuck in this stupid room. He stood up and went over towards the door. He looked out the little window they had there. There were people walking towards them. Maybe they were getting out? Or someone was going to be joining them.

WORDS ;; 125ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

We have to find a better way
- - - Out of this tragedy - - -
As the battle rages on

My ears hear only screams
- - -This war is ours. - - -
Yes, I will see you,Through the smoke and flames

I was glad when Ty finally dropped it, and didn't ask me any further on what had happened."I'm sure." Though i knew the conversation wasn't over, it would come up again. Ty would stop at nothing until he found out what was going on. Curse him..if only he knew what would happen. I shivered at the thought.

My eyes followed him as he walked towards the door, how long had we been in here? How long was i in here? I stood and followed behind Ty watching as two people came forward. I tilted my head curiously, and backed away when they opened the door.

On the frontlines of war
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tagged; tyberious alexander shae, and my Lilli
word count; around 100
notes; This will be fun! xD
oufit,,no going naked now! Clicky!
listening to; Chiodos - Those who slay together, stay together

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