LAGONIA, buck keith

[buck keith lagonia]

buck keith lagonia

I'll bet she doesn't wrestle, fight or box.

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AND I THROW MY HEART BACK TO THE OCEAN

[/b] Buck Keith Lagonia
nicknames: Just call him Buck.
sex: Male
age: Seventeen
birthday: 12th July
grade: Senior
orientation: Heterosexual
diagnosis: leave blank
problem: He's been coming to appointments for holotropic breathwork since he was five years old to try to explain why he is so socially anxious and dreads/avoids all and any social contact. He insists that it is not an issue of self-consciousness but rather a fear of harming someone. Has also had antidepressants and Cognitive Behavioral therapy to no avail. The department of health in the UK listed him as high risk, causing him to be put into compensatory education where he supplied dangerous drugs to his classmates. During this time he had frequent panic attacks and suicidal thoughts. Also noted was an apparent fear of foreigners.
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BUT IT DON'T GO FAR, IT COME BACK FLOATING

[/b] Brown, dark, straight with the occasional curl at the back. Mostly disshevelled and always dyed a jet black.
eyes: Chocolate brown, often brooding.
face: a very square face with a prominent jaw.
body: not a lot of muscle present, mostly thin-boned.
fashion: casual professional. so old suits, sensible shirts etc are fair game.
playby: Synyster Gates
overall: His skin is a glowing, viscuous pearl colour. He almost always smells of tea, a side effect from growing up in England. Most observationary religious clothing isn't worn until he is in a religious ceremony such as a handfasting etc. Most of the time his clothes are formal in the right sense. His fingernails are erratically green from never cleaning, with only white streaks of flesh showing what's underneath. Under his belt he keeps a tactical utensil-blade in case he feels courageous. His precise, almond-shaped eyes never give him away. His close-set ears rarely miss a sound. If you see him, standing in his unisex suits and trenchcoats, he will easily appear too distracted to notice you.
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AND I WATCH IT WASH UP WITH THE DEAD FISH

[/b] the inner planets, Dalai Lama, taking the bus to Bristol in the UK, framboise, grace, archeology.
dislikes: Arabs, Chinese, French, Russian, Spanish, possibly other foreigners, having his picture taken, professionals younger than 20, mornings, the exaggeration of alcohol (not strong enough for him).
strengths: hiding away into the background, despising, defending, obtaining drugs, counting money.
weaknesses: social contact, being in public, drugs.
secrets:

• He is a Wiccan.
  
• tired of being treated like a victim of a disorder
  
• started taking PMA to put his own pain on his life.
  
• the first time he tried speed he didn't know it would merge with his antidepressants - he almost died from this mistake. The other time he almost died was from a stabbing.
  
• psychologically and physical dependent on injecting/smoking crystal meth.
  
• sells crystal meth on the street for $30
  
• has never had more than a fling
  
• his older brother made money by beating him up
  
• this same brother is in prison for rape
  
• he has an old love for comic books
  
• ex-heroin user
  
• once obtained a gun for a friend
  worst memory: the time his brother beat him up so violently that he was vomiting blood. The internal fight he had with himself about whether or not to turn his brother in... Buck still doesn't know if he made the right choice in staying quiet.
  best memory: Dancing on the dancefloor of a club for hours and hours on end fuelled by speed. This is his way of letting loose.
  desires: drugs, sex, for other people to be as miserable as he is, for nobody to ever speak to him, to get revenge on the girl that almost killed him.
  pet peeves: women and their games, getting out of bed, useless authority, ruining nature.
  overall: Filled with so much hatred and loathing, he's been this way ever since he started taking heroin (which was his foot up for the more dangerous drugs). His outcasted attitude comes from before the physical abuse to his body though. He has always loved being silent, being in the background, ignoring everyone. He wanted the world to spin without him. He still wishes sometimes he could not be noticed. He is comfortable in his life and anything that breaks his comfort scares him, like foreigners, or if his favourite cafe was burnt down. Small changes like this scare him, the worst part of it was coming to Hawthorne and realizing that it was going to be a change he couldn't escape from. He detests Hawthorne and everything they try to do. He doesn't like anybody telling him what to do, ever. He won't allow it. The way he gets by the year is by selling stolen answers to exams, it works well for him and he doesn't show any signs of giving it up soon.
  

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BUT IT AIN'T QUITE DEAD, IT JUST IS LIKE THIS

[/b] Doctor of Neuroscience, Jean Lagonia. He doesn't know who his father is.
siblings: his twin brother
other relatives:
history: Buck's mother believed that Buck had an aggressive conduct disorder very early on in his life. As a result she treated him like his brain responses were abnormal, different. She acted like for the rest of his life he was going to be a 'special' boy that starts fights, uses weapons and steals. It frustrated him tirelessly, being told constantly that he was different, sick, disturbed. Like a guinea pig for a science project. She went him to Hawthorne the first opportunity presumably because she got hoping he would become a 'natural' boy. The summer before he left for Hawthorne, he was selling meth on the streets with a few guys when he was attacked by a girl. He didn't know what the hell her problem was, apparently he'd seen the girl before (according to witnesses) but Buck argues he must've been high or something. He has almost completely forgotten what she looks like now.

Through the help of reading about the spiritual path of Buddhism he realized he could self-heal himself indefinitely, so he kept his hopes up while he was being sown together after the stabbing. He was out before he knew it. The only change he had to make to his routine was he started selling meth indoors and he avoided women altogether after that incident. Aside from flings. The world became a scary place, it seemed like foreigners were taking over the planet, taking pictures of him and passing them on. He suspected every one of them and couldn't be in the same room as one. The morning he was leaving to be a freshman at Hawthornes his older brother found heroin needles in his room, he was so frustrated with him that his brother hurt him repeatedly, his friends egging him on, offering him money if he could keep going. They really wanted to see how far he would hurt his own brother. He stripped Buck down to his boxers for greater impact. It was one of the most terrifying experiences of Buck's life.

Now he wants nobody to see him. Nobody to speak to him. He carries a knife in case anyone on the planet looks at him the wrong way. Sometimes though he's been so miserable he's wanted to turn that knife on himself. He and his brother went to the same compensatory education facility, his brother has recently been arrested for raping several of the girls there under the influence of alcohol. What his brother doesn't know is that Buck had offered to turn him in for one of the girls if they paid him. He is now $200 richer and his brother is in jail. A win-win. Especially since Buck has had consentual sex with the girl in question since then, so it gives him a high that he legally got what his brother could only obtain through force. So that's his life up to now, he has no wish to look for his birthfather considering the crap he's put up with from his mother and he's slowly making his way through his last year at Hawthorne.
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OH MY HEART, IT'S A HOUSE IN TORNADO

[/b] Shideh
your age: 18
time zone: Greenwich+1 i think it is
other characters: Luis Alfredo
rp sample: See Luis' app.
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OH MY HEART, IT'S A HOUSE IN THE SKY IN THE EYE OF TORNADO

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