Evil Angel [Carson]

[nickolaus ian andrews]

Ian still couldn't believe it, his thoughts still circling in his mind after he singed off the chat. Carson was here . He shook his head in disbelief, the boy had pretty much stalked him after they broke up. Hoping to get back with him. Now he was just finding out about him and Alli. It was a shock for him, but no..he wasn't suppose to care about that. Carson was the past, he didn't love him anymore. Why did he feel slight;y hurt by this then? No, he didn't care about it, he couldn't. He loved Danni, no one else. Didn't he? Ian pounded his fist against his forehead. He didn't want to think about this. Not now.

He grabbed his jacket and left the room, making his way up to the Rooftop, he looked out at the few, the chill of the air showing in his breath. He craved a cigarette, one thing he had not craved for in a long time. He liked to forget his old habits. Along with the people he did them with. He became clean from all drugs, alcohol, all of that in which could ruin him. All when he met Danni. In a way the boy changed him. He showed a sweeter side more often, and wasn't always so angry. Not like when he was with Carson. Though, there were, and might still be times where he missed all that. Getting in trouble, goofing off. He tried his best to stay out of trouble, for Danni, but the urge never left Ian. As much as he loved Danni, there were times when he wished he could be careless.

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[carson]

Show me what it's like
to be the last one standing

Careless seemed to be the only thing Carson understood. He never cared; he was carefree and just did all he wanted to. He drank like a German, swore like a sailor and never cared for consequences. It was one of the reasons he did what he did to Alli and Ian, he just wanted to. While he did it, the thought never even crossed his mind that Alli would do anything. And she didn’t so in a way, that fact made him worse then how he was before. She gave him the feeling that nothing could happen to him. Even being at Hawthorne was no consequence, he thought it was just a new door opened for him to make mischief and take back Ian.

Ah Ian, the one thing that Carson thought was his. He truly loved him, yeah in his warped sense of the word. Ian was his and his alone. He didn’t like the feeling that someone could take away the little bit of happiness in his life of misery. He always enjoyed causing mischief with him and when he left him for Danni. The little kid that was nothing compared to Carson. Though secretly, Carson understood the draw toward the sweet and innocent Danni. Hell when he first saw the two together, if he hadn’t been feeling so possessive of Ian, he would of thought Danni was slightly cute in a little kid way. Again the word kid.

But sitting in his room, thinking of all of this, of his past and Ian made him want a cigarette, and badly. He didn’t like thinking about this crap, about Ian and Danni, or evin Alli. So he pushed his computer, though he was signed off he still read the comments. Finally having enough he stood up out of his bed, took in a deep breath before grabbing his bottle of whiskey and pack of cigarettes out from under his bed(hidden under a pile of clothes) and headed out the door, both things stuffed into his jacket pocket as he made his way to the Rooftop.

He pushed the door open and climbed the long staircase up to the top. When he made it, he pushed the door out and heard a loud noise as he did so. Hell he didn’t care, not at all. Instead he walked straight to the edge, staring at the ground with a slight tilt to his head, almost like he was contemplating jumping off. But no, Carson was far from suicidal; he loved himself too much to harm his body. No, he was staring at the sky, wondering how cool it would be to be able to fly high in the sky. Not having to look back or worry. That was when he heard a noise and turned, “Hey there?”

teach me wrong from right
and i'll show you what i can be

tags;Ian

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