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Post by alliya on Feb 21, 2011 23:13:36 GMT -5
  I'M THE NEW CANCER[/B][/size][/font][/size] •• N E V E R • L O O K E D • B E T T E R ••[/i] A N D Y O U C A N ' T S T A N D I T- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Alliya went and knocked on Blake’s door. She knew that she would be welcome anyways, but it was rather normal for her to do. She opened the door right after and smiled when she saw Blake. She smiled and saw him laying on the bed. She went over and crawled onto his bed before cuddling into his side.
She leaned up and kissed him before she let her hands travel to the bottom of his shirt. She pushed it up a little and kissed him again. ”You know I love you right?” she asked as she moved her kissed down his neck.
She was sick of being called insignificant, and weak on top of that. She wanted to be cared for, and she knew that Blake cared for her. She wanted him to prove it, even though she knew it already. She wanted to feel loved, not just be told it. Monroe had gotten things into her head, even though the guys knew it now, it was only because of the fact that she was piss drunk and high off her ass.
She moved so her hand was now unbuttoning his zipper and she kissed him again. ”I love you” she whispered.
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Post by kristakalon3 on Feb 22, 2011 0:19:49 GMT -5
His mind was whirling; he still wasn't all that calm after what Alliya had told the group at the party. How could she do something to a girl so innocent, so sweet? He really just wanted to get revenge on her, leave her for dead. He'd never felt so angry in his life, it was amazing what Alliya coud do to him. He let out a frustrated sigh, pacing across the room for a few minutes. He needed to do something to get all of this anger out of his system, but he didn't know what. He stared at the wall for a moment, before throwing a hard punch into the wall. He just stood there, breathing deeply. After taking a couple of deep breaths, he looked down at his knuckles, which now had trickles of blood showing up, and he stretched out his fingers.
Blake finally just layed back on his bed and stared up at the ceiling for a few minutes. He still couldn't process it through his mind why she would do that to his girl. That was his girl, not her playtoy. He wanted her time to be special, and with him preferably, he'd had it all planned out in his mind when she said that she was ready. Yeah, he was a romantic, shut up. It'd ruin his badass image. She'd be the only one to see that side. His eyes moved to the door when he heard a knock, but he already knew who it was. She was the only one that really came to his dorm, unless Jacobi had invited someone over. But he was hardly ever in the room, so he doubted it most of the time.
He looked down at her and smiled lightly at her. He was so scared to do certain things to her now, he didn't want to bring up any bad memories from that night. But, when she leaned up and kissed him, he immediately kissed her back. His eyes opened when she spoke and he nodded his head. What was with her? There was something up.. again, ofcourse she hasn't been the same since Monroe did that to her, but this was totally different. As soon as heer hand started undoing his zipper, he looked downn at her with surprise and placed a hand on hers, "I love you too, but.." He trailed off for a moment before sitting up in his bed and shaking his head at her, "We can't. Not yet. I know you're not ready for this, Alli."
"speech"
WORDS; 323
TAG; Alliya
OUTFIT; click.
MUSIC; give me novacaine by green day
CREDIT; thavron @ caution
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Post by alliya on Feb 22, 2011 0:35:57 GMT -5
I'M THE NEW CANCER [/B][/size][/font][/size] •• N E V E R • L O O K E D • B E T T E R ••[/i] A N D Y O U C A N ' T S T A N D I T- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Alliya felt his hand on hers as soon as she began to undo the zipper and she looked at him. He didn’t want her either? She shut her eyes. As soon as he said that she wasn’t ready and he sat up she looked over at him. She wanted to be ready for him, she knew that he had waited a long time, and she wanted to show him that she loved him, and vice versa.
She leaned up and kissed him again. ”I am ready though” she said softly. She knew that he knew otherwise. He knew what happened, and she knew that he wasn’t happy about it. No one was that she had accidentally told that night. Ian was extremely pissed and she was surprised that he was still here. Since of course she thought that he’d kill her that night. Obviously something calmed him down.
She let her hand travel back to the crotch of his pants, even though he was sitting, she wanted to get her way. She wanted to prove it. She felt him move her hand away again and she looked up at him. ”You don’t even want me” she said as she moved off the bed. She sat down on the edge of it and pulled her legs up
She held onto them and rested her head on her knees and let a tear fall. She was exactly like Monroe said, insignificant and weak. She couldn’t even get her boyfriend to have sex with her even when she threw herself at him. She was exactly like everyone else thought. Innocent, naïve, insecure, and insignificant.
”Why not now? Why wait any longer, it doesn’t matter anymore” she said softly, it was probably muffled by her legs. That’s when she didn’t hold back anymore. She just let herself go and started crying. She didn’t know how to handle anything and that seemed to be the best way.
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Post by kristakalon3 on Feb 22, 2011 12:50:17 GMT -5
Blake looked at her with a concerned look. What had Monroe put in her mind that was making her act this way? Yeah, he was ready. He'd been waiting for a long time, but he didn't want her to do anything that she'd regret. He wouldn't be able to stand seeing her feel so bad about something, it'd break his heart.
He didn't even kiss her back when she leaned up, because of the way that she was acting. He shook his head at her. He wasn't going to be persuaded, because he knew her so well. This wasn't helping him at all, he was already in a bad mood because of what she told the group, and now with her acting this way it was only pissing him off even more. His eyes drifted over to the indent that was now in wall, thanks to himself and his anger. He couldn't imagine what her brother was thinking right now; this was his little sister and he knew that Ian was protective over her.
Blake bit the inside of his cheek as her hand moved back to the crotch of his pants, but he pushed her hand away again. The look on her face, and her words, broke his heart. He shook his head again and moved to the edge of the bed with her. She was totally wrong, he wanted her. He just wanted to make sure that it was what she really wanted, "Alliya, it's not that. You know I do, I just don't want you to regret anything," he said quietly, placing his arm around her shoulder.
When the next words came out of her lips, he let out a sigh and ran a hand through his hair, "Because, I know you're not ready, especially after..." he couldn't even speak of it, it pissed him off. If he said it aloud, then he knew that he'd only get pissed and she'd get even more upset. He couldn't handle that. His eyes widened when she started crying and he just sat there for a moment, and then in one movement, she was in his lap and he placed her head on his chest, "Alli, babe.." He said, in a almost whispering tone of voice.
"speech"
WORDS; 401
TAG; Alliya
OUTFIT; click.
MUSIC; give me novacaine by green day
CREDIT; thavron @ caution
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Post by alliya on Feb 22, 2011 13:35:58 GMT -5
I'M THE NEW CANCER [/B][/size][/font][/size] •• N E V E R • L O O K E D • B E T T E R ••[/i] A N D Y O U C A N ' T S T A N D I T- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -She flinched slightly as he put his arm around her shoulder. She wasn’t expecting it completely. But she knew that he was going to try to comfort her. Hearing what he said made her cry even more. She knew that he cared for her, but still felt bad because of the fact that she was making him wait so long.
She held her knees tighter as he almost mentioned what had happened. She didn’t like talking about it, and only had that one time because of the fact that she was under the influence. As soon as he stopped she nodded and cried a little harder. She hated how all of this made her feel. She knew that Ian would want to know more about it, and she hoped that he wouldn’t question her. She had enough nightmares about that night that she didn’t want to talk about it too.
When he pulled her into his lap she wrapped her arms around his neck. ”I love you” she whispered into his chest. She held onto him tighter. ”Why me though?” she asked as she tried calming herself down. She didn’t want to cry, that just showed that she was weak, just like Monroe said.
”Do you think I’m weak? Or insignificant?” she asked softly, wiping her eyes of any tears that had fallen. She didn’t want to be that way, but obviously she felt that way. Of course Monroe had everything to do with it. She was perfectly find until that night. Of course she was also happy that all the cuts had healed before Ian had found out and before Blake had even come to hawthorne. Otherwise they would have known sooner.
She had also taken great care to stay away from Ian for that time, but Monroe only made cuts on her torso, and not any on her legs. The one that had been on her cheek had been covered with makeup half the time, before it healed. Of course if Blake looked, he would see a darker patch of skin where Monroe had dug in with the knife, but it wasn’t that obvious unless you were looking, and this dress just happened to show it slightly.
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Post by kristakalon3 on Feb 25, 2011 0:54:41 GMT -5
Seeing Alliya in this state broke his heart into pieces. He could have sworn that he felt that feeling of tears coming to his eyes just watching her cry. He'd seen her upset before, yes, but not this badly. Well, nothing this badly had happened to her before and usually, she'd just want to shoot up to make those troubles go away. This time, though, he didn't want her to shoot up, because he knew taht this wasn't just going to go away so easily. This was something that had been taken from her, something that she cherished. She hadn't even been ready to give it away to him and they've been together to a while now.
Blake wrapped his arms around her and bit the inside of his cheek again. Hhe didn't really know what to say at that moment in time. There wasn't really thing that he could say to make her feel better, because there was nothing that would do justice. So, he just sat there in silence until she said something. And when she did, he smiled a little bit; those three words, when they left her lips, always put a smile on his lips, no matter the situation, "I love you too," he said in a low voice, kissing her head. When she asked a question, his eyebrows furrowed together in confusion, before he understood what she was talking about, "I don't really know, babe.. Sometimes things just happen because people are fucked up in the head."
He immediately shook his head when she asked if she were weak, "You are one of the strongest girls I know, Alli. The fact that you've put up with your family fighting, getting caught with drugs, and then this and you're still here, not doing something that you might later regret, makes you the strongest person I know," He said, tilting her chin up so that he could look her in the eyes. He wanted her to know how serious he was about all of that. He gave her a small smile before placing a light kiss on her lips.
"speech"
WORDS; 374
TAG; Alliya
OUTFIT; click.
MUSIC; give me novacaine by green day
CREDIT; thavron @ caution
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Post by alliya on Mar 7, 2011 22:54:46 GMT -5
I'M THE NEW CANCER [/B][/size][/font][/size] •• N E V E R • L O O K E D • B E T T E R ••[/i] A N D Y O U C A N ' T S T A N D I T- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -Alliya knew that many people kept being raped a secret. She had planned on it. Although that all went down the drain when she had gotten drunk and high. She spilled it to Blake, Ian, Hope, and a few others. Some people would try to argue that she liked it and it wasn’t rape, but she could always argue it. She hated Monroe, she was straight and with Blake, why would she want to fool around with someone else.
She hugged him tighter and buried her head into his chest. She didn’t want to move. She was quite content staying like this, but of course he would change that. When he pulled her chin up so that she looked into his eyes she looked down.
When he smiled she blushed slightly and smiled. Although it was barely a smile, it could still be considered one. When he leaned in and kissed her lightly, she kissed him back and leaned her head back onto his shoulder. ”Why?” she asked lightly. It could go for many things. Why did he still want to be with her, why was he not like other guys and just had sex with her, why did he love her so much? She didn’t know what answers she wanted either.
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You get a shitty post. that's what headache, pain, and word fucking up :)
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