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Post by victoria hope jean on Jan 11, 2011 16:49:33 GMT -5
 EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE IT ALLC A S T L E W A L L SBUT IT'S SO E M P T Y LIVING BEHIND THESE
Hope let out a soft sigh and nodded her head as Jeffree started talking. She understood what he meant, and she wished that things hadn't ended up the way that they were. She didn't want to lose a friend, but she knew that she was probably going to. She couldn't help that she liked Kobby more than Jeffree. She just knew Kobby better and trusted him more. Sure, he could act like an ass sometimes, like when he got mad, but she didn't care about that.
"I understand what you mean," She said, in a sad tone. She didn't want to lose him as a friend, but maybe it was best. I mean, look at all that had happened. They brought out the worst in each other. She had never acted so poorly to someone in her whole life and she felt terrible about it. Yeah, she was odd. How could someone act so calmly towards him? He insulted her, called her a slut, and pretty much stabbed her. And yet, here she was, trying to calm him down and talk him into staying friends? She was pretty much fucked up in the head. No sane person would do this, they would try to get payback.
"You should feel special, Jeffree. You have friends by your side, and a girl that really likes you," She said, mentioning Belle. She really didn't understand why he was so upset about herself, when he had Belle falling practically head over heels for the boy. She stood up and looked down at Jeffree for a moment, before sighing and closing her eyes, "Why did all of this happen?" Hope knew that it was random to ask, but she couldn't understand why all of this shit had to happen to the two of them so quickly, "I mean, we don't even know anything about each other and look how quickly everything has changed already. We were friends, we kissed, and how look at us. All of this is so fucked up."
Now, she was beginning to freak out a little bit, but she took a breath and slowly let it out before looking back at Jeff, "I don't want to lose you because of my mistakes."
THIS POST GOES OUT TO Jeffree AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE done! THERE ARE ABOUT 390 something WORDS SO THAT SHOULD BE GOOD. I JUST HAPPEN TO BE WEARING this!. LIKE THIS SONG TOO? IT'S CASTLE WALLS BY T.I. FEATURING CHRISTINA AGUILERA. OH! BEFORE I FORGET, I WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT yeah, this post sucks ass. sorry. CREDIT FOR THIS TEMPLATE GOES TO BUNNYA! OF CAUTION 2.0!.
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Post by jeffreemarccollen on Jan 16, 2011 6:00:56 GMT -5
 
CAUSE I'M OVERLY ATTRACTED,
and terribly convinced
[/color] Jeff sighed as her words filled his mind. He'd expected them. Almost line-by-line. His eyes shut tightly, holding back any and all of the emotions he was feeling. How could she understand? If she understood they wouldn't have been talking about it. Opening his eyes, he glared at the girl, firm and serious. His mind was split, in a sense. One part of him wanted to gain sweet vendetta. The other wanted her to just love him, and forget about everyone else. But both sides were far too flawed to choose over one another. " It's not enough."[/color] The boy said abruptly, breaking their eye contact ever-so-slowly. Jeff had a certain.. hunger about him. A craving if you must deem it as such. Attention, was in turn, the food. The more he got, the thicker his demented-mentality grew. Much like someone who makes too many trips to the local drive-through. It was simple really, a concept of easy conception if you will. And the second he was told he couldn't have something- well, he wanted it even more. More than anything else. Which, ultimately, led to the internal-conflict at foot. Sure, Jeffree had something with Belle. But Hope had stood right up and told him he couldn't have her- it wasn't conceivable. He'd win this. Or.. go insane trying? " I don't want to loose you either Hope. It's just.. hard... I can't explain shit that happens."[/color]Jeff babbled, attempting to muster up something witty. His eyes drifted back into hers softly, he was at a loss for words. Though after a brief pause, he eventually spoke " We can be friends I guess, but no stupid boy'll ever care for you like I do. I don't care how much you think that asshole loves you. My feelings will always be one fucking step ahead-a his."[/color] His words could've very well singed the air around them if it were possible. Though Jeff didn't give a flying-fuck if she believed his statements or not, both Kobby and Hope had another thing coming if he ever caught wind of their denial. But that was drama for a different day. THAT YOU COULD BE MY PRINCESS,
and I could be your prince.[/b]
WORDS: 420 give or take idek
OUTFIT: mhm mhm
COMMENTS: ew, why is this so long and ramble-filled. sorry. It's 5:55.
LYRICS: Jane doe- NevershoutNever
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Post by victoria hope jean on Jan 18, 2011 21:54:22 GMT -5
EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE IT ALLC A S T L E W A L L SBUT IT'S SO E M P T Y LIVING BEHIND THESE
Hope looked over at a wall, in thought. If only none of this had happened, they would still be good friends. She wouldn't of had to worry about the feelings of Jeff, she could just be with Kobby and it would all be fine and dandy. But no, she had to fuck it up somehow. That's how it was with Hope. She could never have something to make her happy for so long, so somehow, subconciously, she would fuck it up without even meaning too. She's done it as along as she could remember.
Even as a little girl, she would have screwed things up. She don't remember how when she was younger, but she always did. In all honesty, she didn't even know why Jeff or Kobby liked her. She wasn't worth it. She wasn't what they wanted, in anyway. She was messed up in the head, always hating on herself. She was only going to let them down in the end, and this was already one way. She ruined a good friendship with Jeffree, and possibly one of the best relationships she would have had. Who would have thought that one girl could ruin so much, in such a small amount of time.
Snapping her eyes back over to Jeff, Hope bit her bottom lip at the words and nodded her head. She understood... Well, actually no, that was a lie. She wasn't really one for attention in the first place, and when she got it, yeah she liked it for a while, but then it began to feel awkward for her. She couldn't stand being in the spotlight for so long. Hell, she'd rather if no guy liked her, to be honest. It was less trouble for her. She had to get over her fear of relationship and learn to trust a guy when it came to relationships, and that was hard for her to do after everything that had happened in the past with boys. The one guy that she actually trusted, that wasn't her brother, took advantage of her, and then her brother didn't believe a word she said. It was hard to let things like that go. So... In a way, she kind of understood how Jeffree and Kobby felt; she betrayed them, gained their trust and broke it within just a day.
She let out a breath, when Jeff's eyes drifted back to her own. She was glad that he didn't want to lose her either, but the fact that she might tore her apart. Sure, it probably wasn't a good idea to keep him as a friend, especially if she was going to try to work things out with Kobby, but she didn't care. As much as she didn't want to admit it, she cared for Jeffree, just not in the way that he wanted her too/. His next few statements made her surprised, and it was shown on her face. It made her jaw drop, just a little, not over-dramatically like your thinking. It looked like she was taking a small breath through her lips, and then, took in that breath before speaking, "Ah.. Um.. Okay," That's all that she could think of to say at the time, she was at a loss for words.
THIS POST GOES OUT TO Jeffree AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE done! THERE ARE ABOUT 565 WORDS SO THAT SHOULD BE GOOD. I JUST HAPPEN TO BE WEARING this!. LIKE THIS SONG TOO? IT'S CASTLE WALLS BY T.I. FEATURING CHRISTINA AGUILERA. OH! BEFORE I FORGET, I WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT hahaha, i rambled.. CREDIT FOR THIS TEMPLATE GOES TO BUNNYA! OF CAUTION 2.0!.
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Post by jeffreemarccollen on Jan 24, 2011 18:45:59 GMT -5
CAUSE I'M OVERLY ATTRACTED,
and terribly convinced
[/color] Jeff sighed heavily, running a tired hand through his hair. " Well.. I-" He paused, not knowing what he meant to say. Atleast after this was all over they'd be able to tolerate eachother. No more name calling. Which was relieving in its own right, but he still wanted more. Staggering to his feet, Jeffree stared at the floor in a depressed fashion. " We should get out of here, before someone finds us.. And you're all.."[/color] He looked over her wounds once again, making a gesture towards it after he was finished speaking. Once word got out about this he'd be ruined. No girl was able to keep a secret for too long. They just had to mouth off to their nosy friend, and vice versa. Soon enough, everyone would be at his throat. No one would trust him. Glancing around the room, he surveyed the damage. Soda splattered the walls, broken glass littered the floor, it was a hell of a mess. And although he didn't see any at the time, the place was probably decked out with cameras. He gulped, nervously looking back to Hope with the sorriest of expressions. " I'm so sorry.." Were the only words he could come up with. And left with no clue as to patch things up, and an awkward silence, he just stood there. Waiting for her to respond. THAT YOU COULD BE MY PRINCESS,
and I could be your prince.[/b]
WORDS: 290 unce unce
OUTFIT: mhm mhm
COMMENTS: lulul, fail.
LYRICS: Jane doe- NevershoutNever
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Post by victoria hope jean on Jan 24, 2011 20:50:23 GMT -5
EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE IT ALLC A S T L E W A L L SBUT IT'S SO E M P T Y LIVING BEHIND THESE
Hope looked back over at him and nodded her head. She didn't want anyone to see her like this; they would ask questions, and she didn't want people to know about what happened around here. Ofcourse, she knew that someone would find out eventually, especially since the lounge was trashed and there were cameras. She wasn't stupid, she knew that Jeffree could get in trouble for this, even without her saying a word. Her eyes looked over the student lounge and she bit on her bottom lip just slightly. Yeah, this was a mess. She knew that someone would suspect something if they were still in here while all of this was still here.
Her eyes moved back over to Jeff when he started talking again, and she shook her head, giving him a soft smile, "It's fine Jeffree," She said quietly. As weird as it was, she didn't want him to be sorry, or upset. She wanted him to just live his life, without her standing in the way. Yeah, she'd still be a friend, but nothing more. And she was relieved with that. She wouldn't have to worry about this anymore. Hopefully, "Let's just... forget that this happened?" She asked him, biting her bottom lip again. It's all she wanted.. She wanted to forget all of this.
THIS POST GOES OUT TO Jeffree AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE done! THERE ARE ABOUT 565 WORDS SO THAT SHOULD BE GOOD. I JUST HAPPEN TO BE WEARING this!. LIKE THIS SONG TOO? IT'S CASTLE WALLS BY T.I. FEATURING CHRISTINA AGUILERA. OH! BEFORE I FORGET, I WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT yeahh, this sucks haha. CREDIT FOR THIS TEMPLATE GOES TO BUNNYA! OF CAUTION 2.0!.
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Post by jeffreemarccollen on Jan 26, 2011 19:09:19 GMT -5
CAUSE I'M OVERLY ATTRACTED,
and terribly convinced
[/color] A soft smile tugged just slightly at the ends of his lips. Though he didn't know why she was smiling, it was nice to see it again. Taking a step forward, he gulped. she wasn't the only one who was good at testing people. Blushing, Jeff laughed lightly, opening his arms. " Gotta seal the dealll~" He exclaimed, hoping she'd take up the offer, even after all that'd happened. It wasn't the smartest thing to test their newly re-discovered friendship, but what was any relationship without a few.. risks? Plus, he needed just a little bit more of an advantage over her. Since Kobby'd probably be the first to stick his nose into their buisness. And if he was getting yelled at, Jeff'd make sure Hope did too. It was a clever plan realy, and no one would ever guess it on merely a hunch. Not to mention Jeff had a taste for revenge, if she broke her 'promise', there was even more hell to come. And heaven help the girl if she denied his 'hell- threats' again. THAT YOU COULD BE MY PRINCESS,
and I could be your prince.[/b]
WORDS: 230 cgsdgsasdath
OUTFIT: mhm mhm
COMMENTS: GOTTA SEAL THE DEAALLLL
LYRICS: Jane doe- NevershoutNever
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Post by victoria hope jean on Jan 26, 2011 20:25:51 GMT -5
EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE IT ALLC A S T L E W A L L SBUT IT'S SO E M P T Y LIVING BEHIND THESE
The fact that this was all going to be over made Hope happy. She could finally just live her life again, not worrying about if she saw Jeff, what she would say if they got into a fight. Instead, she could just worry about what she needed to. All she needed to worry about now was Kobby, and how they were. If they would ever make up... God, how she hoped that they made up. She would be completely heartbroken. Which was probably how he felt when he found out what she did. She shook her head of the thoughts and let out a laugh at Jeffree when he began talking, his arms opened. She stepped into his arms, accepting the offer. She never said no to a hug, she loved them. Besides, it just proved that they were friends again.
It was quite possible that she was too forgiving. Actually, it was a definite. She always forgave people too easily, it was just in her nature. She couldn't always stay mad at someone for too long, no matter what happened. Well, except for Alex. She was never able to forgive him. It was just impossible. As for others, she would forgive almost anyone. Even someone that pulled a knife out on her and cut her with it. She was pretty fucked up, she wasn't going to lie. It's just how she was, though. She couldn't help it.
THIS POST GOES OUT TO Jeffree AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE done! THERE ARE ABOUT idefk, pretty short. WORDS SO THAT SHOULD BE GOOD. I JUST HAPPEN TO BE WEARING this!. LIKE THIS SONG TOO? IT'S CASTLE WALLS BY T.I. FEATURING CHRISTINA AGUILERA. OH! BEFORE I FORGET, I WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT REVENGEEE. CREDIT FOR THIS TEMPLATE GOES TO BUNNYA! OF CAUTION 2.0!.
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Post by jeffreemarccollen on Jan 29, 2011 19:05:24 GMT -5
CAUSE I'M OVERLY ATTRACTED,
and terribly convinced
[/color] A sly grin secretively appeared upon Jeff's face as Hope came into his arms. Hook-line-sinker. Tightly wrapping his arms around her, he internally praised himself. This was too good to be true. Though she still wasn't at her limit.. there was more work to be done. He let forth an all too fake sweet-smile. This had to be believable. Slowly, Jeff allowed his hands to drift downward, stropping precisely at her waist. Pausing, he glanced up at her face, looking at her in that 'special-way'. " I could do so much for you Hope." He said in a hushed voice, gently pulling her just a bit closer. Of course this wasn't all some big act, he did love her, alot actually. And just because he needed the upper-hand didn't mean he was just leading her on. Not that'd she ever give up her precious Kobby for lil' ol' Jeff, but it was worth the attempt. His eyes lowered as the sadness seeped in, knowing he'd never have her was a tad of a let down. Sure there were other girls, but one of the ones he wanted most was off-limits. With a nervous lump in his throat, and a pessimistic mind-set , Jeff awaited her reaction. THAT YOU COULD BE MY PRINCESS,
and I could be your prince.[/b]
WORDS: 250 give or take
OUTFIT: mhm mhm
COMMENTS: hurrhurrhurr
LYRICS: Jane doe- NevershoutNever
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Post by victoria hope jean on Jan 30, 2011 13:35:08 GMT -5
EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE IT ALLC A S T L E W A L L SBUT IT'S SO E M P T Y LIVING BEHIND THESE
As his arms wrapped around her, she couldn't help but smile a little. She wrapped her arms around him as well, but definitely not as tight. She had to admit, she did love this boys hugs. She couldn't deny that fact, she also couldn't deny the fact that they had something, or else none of this would have happened. But she wasn't going to do anything about it, and if someone asked if she liked him, she'd deny it.
Sure, it seemed upsetting, and it was in some cases, but she liked Kobby. And they were going somewhere, or they had been until she and Jeffree kissed. She was torn from her thoughts when she felt Jeff's hands drift and she looked up at him, surprised and confused at the same time. She had thought they decided they would stay friends, but it seemed that he just didn't want to, with the way that he was talking. She didn't say anything; she didn't know what to say. 'It doesn't matter, Jeff. You're not Kobby' would be good words, but they were mean, in a way. And sure, although just minutes before they were screaming at each other, she wasn't really the type of girl to just plainly tell someone off.
Hope placed her hands on his chest, seeming like she was about to push him away, but it never came. She never pushed him away, "We've already been through this, Jeff," She said quietly, looking down. She needed to leave, now, while they were still on good terms and nothing else happened.
THIS POST GOES OUT TO Jeffree AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE done! THERE ARE ABOUT idefk WORDS SO THAT SHOULD BE GOOD. I JUST HAPPEN TO BE WEARING this!. LIKE THIS SONG TOO? IT'S CASTLE WALLS BY T.I. FEATURING CHRISTINA AGUILERA. OH! BEFORE I FORGET, I WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT fsfkdsjfaif, this post fucking suuckss.. CREDIT FOR THIS TEMPLATE GOES TO BUNNYA! OF CAUTION 2.0!.
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Post by jeffreemarccollen on Jan 30, 2011 20:18:00 GMT -5
CAUSE I'M OVERLY ATTRACTED,
and terribly convinced
[/color] Jeff's stomach dropped as he looked into her eyes. She was hesitating, thinking. And as she spoke, his heart hurt. bad. His lip quivered, and his eyes watered, why was this so darn hard? He didn't know what to do.
" I can change" The boy desperately stated, all he desired was a chance. Something he certainly wasn't getting any time soon. He hadn't been close to breaking down in tears for a long while. But this could've very well been the record breaker. Taking one of her hands from his chest into his, he looked at her with pleading eyes. Begging. " I wish you could love me." Jeff said abruptly, his voice shaking from the strain of holding back threatening tears. He never knew he'd get this attached to someone he'd just met, but that assumption was proven totally invalid. " Am I that terrible that you can't even give me a chance against that guy..? " He asked, there was just no way some asshole was that special to her. Jeff thought of all the things he'd be able to do for her. Taking her out, doing fun little things, imagining all the laughs and smiles they'd share. All just mere dreams. Pointless dreams at that. He squeezed her hand briefly, knowing it'd be pulled away soon enough. And letting go was near impossible. THAT YOU COULD BE MY PRINCESS,
and I could be your prince.[/b]
WORDS: 280 somethin
OUTFIT: mhm mhm
COMMENTS: :c this is sad
LYRICS: Jane doe- NevershoutNever
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Post by victoria hope jean on Jan 30, 2011 22:54:28 GMT -5
EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE IT ALLC A S T L E W A L L SBUT IT'S SO E M P T Y LIVING BEHIND THESE
The look on his face was breaking her heart. She didn't want this to happen, she didn't want to hurt anyone. But it seemed that no matter what she decided, she was going to. It was either him or Kobby. And right now, her heart was leaning towards Kobby, though she didn't know why. Yeah, they clicked, she obviously trusted him, she told him everything. Literally. But, things clicked with Jeff too, but no matter what, she knew what her choice was going to be, "You don't need to change, Jeff. You're perfect the way that you are," she said quietly. She had a feeling that she just might cry, she felt so bad for doing this.
It was obvious that she felt something, because she never pulled away from him. She looked away from him, not being able to handle the sad look that was in his eyes. She knew that if she looked at him any longer, than she would have cried. She was a sensitive girl, and seeing others cry broke her heart. She could cry all that she wanted, but when it was someone else.. She did like him, but she didn't even know what love was. Everytime she got too close to someone, they hurt her just as soon as she got close to them. The next words that came out of his lips made her head snap back up and her brown orbs looked into his eyes, "You are not terrible, Jeff. It's.. It's hard to explain," she whispered out, but the first sentence was in a stern voice. He wasn't a terrible person, not at all.
She gently slid her hand out of his and stepped back, not being able to handle any of this. This was the first time that she'd ever been put into a situation like this. She'd never really even thought of a relationship before, especially after the party. So, she'd never had to be this serious with someone before. It kind of scared her to think about it. She bit her bottom lip and looked down at the floor for a second, not really knowing what to do, before looking back up at him with a sorry look, "I'm so, so sorry, Jeff."
THIS POST GOES OUT TO Jeffree AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE done! THERE ARE ABOUT idefk WORDS SO THAT SHOULD BE GOOD. I JUST HAPPEN TO BE WEARING this!. LIKE THIS SONG TOO? IT'S CASTLE WALLS BY T.I. FEATURING CHRISTINA AGUILERA. OH! BEFORE I FORGET, I WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT awe, how sad.. CREDIT FOR THIS TEMPLATE GOES TO BUNNYA! OF CAUTION 2.0!.
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Post by jeffreemarccollen on Jan 31, 2011 19:13:32 GMT -5
CAUSE I'M OVERLY ATTRACTED,
and terribly convinced
[/color] Jeff stared at his hand as hers slipped away. His stomach felt sick, and the state of his heart was even worse. This would quite possibly be the last time they'd be talking, and there was not a thing he could do about it. He looked over at her, noticing how far away she stood, longing for her touch. His mind went back to all that'd happened, not just this night, but everything before. They'd really only been face-to-face twice, it was ridiculous. Yet the feelings he had for her were unmatched by anyone he'd been with previously. He'd always been notorious for falling fast, but this was out of the ordinary. Sniffling, Jeffree tried to keep a straight face as he spoke. " Don't be." He stated, not wanting wanting her to feel one more ounce of guilt. " I just want you to be happy. And if I'm not the guy for the job, I don't want.. to.." He froze, because if he were to utter one more word, he'd surely cry. Taking a deep breath, Jeff picked up his feet and slowly walked to the door. Grasping the handle, he glanced over his shoulder at Hope. " You'll get home ok right..?" He asked, although he was positive she'd be fine without him. THAT YOU COULD BE MY PRINCESS,
and I could be your prince.[/b]
WORDS: 280 somethin
OUTFIT: mhm mhm
COMMENTS: this is poop
LYRICS: Jane doe- NevershoutNever
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Post by victoria hope jean on Feb 1, 2011 17:49:22 GMT -5
EVERYONE THINKS THAT I HAVE IT ALLC A S T L E W A L L SBUT IT'S SO E M P T Y LIVING BEHIND THESE
Hope let out a sad sigh and looked down at her feet, the cookie monster slippers that covered them. She couldn't believe that this was really happening. Really, they'd only met face to face twice and she didn't think that those two times would lead to things like this. Was this how it was always going to be when she and Jeff met face to face? Will something always happen? Hopefully not, she just wanted a normal life, without the drama. Ofcourse that didn't seem to be happening, now did it? It seemed that trouble just loved her company.
When he began to speak again, she glanced up to see him trying to keep up a straight face. She, on the other hand, didn't even bother to try. Guilt and sadness was all over her facial features, she didn't want to say goodbye like this.. with him being sad. But, really, was there any other choice? It didn't look like it, "I can't help but be," She said in a whisper, "This is all my fault.. I want you to be happy, Jeff." She knew that there was really no use in saying it, because in a few seconds they would be leaving and all of this would be nothing but a memory. Who knew, maybe something would happen and they'd end up together, in some crazy way. She did, after all, like him, but she couldn't see herself with him, but with Kobby. It was stupid, yes, but it happened.
As he walked to the door, she let out a breath, knowing that, now, this was all over. She could live her life the way she wanted to, now. Nothing would be stopping her. Well.. except for the fact that Kobby was still pissed off at her. She nodded her head at him and smiled lightly, "I'll be fine.. I'll see you later, Jeff."
THIS POST GOES OUT TO Jeffree AND IT JUST SO HAPPENS TO BE done! THERE ARE ABOUT idefk WORDS SO THAT SHOULD BE GOOD. I JUST HAPPEN TO BE WEARING this!. LIKE THIS SONG TOO? IT'S CASTLE WALLS BY T.I. FEATURING CHRISTINA AGUILERA. OH! BEFORE I FORGET, I WANTED TO TELL YOU THAT this is shit. CREDIT FOR THIS TEMPLATE GOES TO BUNNYA! OF CAUTION 2.0!.
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