Familiar taste of Poison (Ty)

[ty]

Ty shook his head again. He knew that Willow needed him. He needed her as well. He also needed Lilli. Things needed to change, he needed to know who he was. He was still sorta lost. Everything was still cloudy. He shut his eyes. "No. No I won't be like him. I'm Ty, not dad. Tyberious Alexander Shae, not some drunk asshole that hits girls, and abuses his family" he said softly. Mostly for himself.

He opened his eyes when she lifted his head. "I did it for Willow, for Lillie, for Mom. I did it for all of us. I saved us. I didn't mean to. It was his fault. I didn't mean it" he said, ripping his head out of her grip and returning it to his knees. "I did it for you" he whispered. He refused to cry. The gang taught him that. Crying was a weakness, weaknesses showed blindness, blindness led to death.

WORDS ;; 150ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; jay/willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

We have to find a better way
- - - Out of this tragedy - - -
As the battle rages on

My ears hear only screams
- - -This war is ours. - - -
Yes, I will see you,Through the smoke and flames

"But your becoming him! Just think of that for a second time Ty! You joined a gang thinking it would help. A gang! Which leads to so much violence! You let Lilli get exposed, and be turned into a whore! It all started when you killed your father! It would have been better for you to die instead of him!" I yelled with all the fury in my voice. I wanted to break him, make him miserable. Why you may ask? To be honest now..i didn't really care why. I shook my head, a laugh escaping my lips. "Stop denying it! Let it go. Stop holding back and become what your meant to be!" My voice was full of persuasion.

i pushed his shoulders against the wall so his face was to mine. I stared into his eyes, they seemed so anguished. I could feel a tinge of sadness, but waved it aside. It had just been Willow, she couldn't stand me doing this to Ty. She was already trying to come back. 'He still thinks its you Willow. If you come back trying to comfort him..he'll only think you were playing a sick joke on you..he'll push you away for it.' i shake my head in disappointment. "How many times do i have to tell you. I'm not your sister!" I glared at him, looking into his eyes.

I stood then. "Get up!" I order. "Show me what your really worth Ty." i tilt my head and look at his pathetic crumpled body on the floor. "Your not brave enough to fight back! Your pathetic, you can't protect Willow! Show me that you can! Show me that your not weak!" I nudged him with my foot. "Thats what i thought...Pathetic little Ty, the coward that killed his father, let his sister get raped, and let his other one get sold out for money." i shake my head. "Your no better than your father already." i could hear willows cry in the back of my head. I winced slightly.

'Stop! Please! What are you proving by doing this?!' i scoffed, and shook my head. 'I'm proving how much your better off without him Willow...can't you tell he's already starting to go mad? I'm just helping him realize it.' A smirk spread across my face as i hear a sob, and then complete silence again.

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[ty]

Ty shook his head. "That gang saved our lives. That gang that your bashing, If I hadn't joined it, we would be dead. Plain and simple. I'd rather be living and in this hell hole than dead." he yelled back at her. "I don't care if your not Willow. You still share a body, If you think I'll hit you, your crazy. your a girl, and my sister. Regardless." he said as she pushed his shoulders back so that he looked at her.

"I fought to keep Willow safe. You know what happened when I did that. You had to hear me tell Willow. I refuse to fight a girl, so what I have standards. Ones that will not change." he said as he stood up. He went and sat down on his bed again. He didn't want to deal with this anymore. His sister needed to come back.

WORDS ;; 150ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; jay/willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;; sorry its shit, my other one was longer, but NO! my computer had to delete it

[willow jayden shae]

We have to find a better way
- - - Out of this tragedy - - -
As the battle rages on

My ears hear only screams
- - -This war is ours. - - -
Yes, I will see you,Through the smoke and flames

I listened to Ty speak, completely frustrated. "Why won't you give in?!" I yelled in panicked anger. I walked up to him. "Forget about your standards! Why won't you do what i ask! I always win!" I shoved him losing all control. Anger flashed in my eyes. I staggered back, my head rushing with pain. I could feel Willows anger. 'No! I have to break him!'

I clutched my head, and yelled. "No! I'm suppose to break you! Why won't you give up?!" My face was anguished, so much pain rushing through my head. 'He won't give up because of me Jay.' I shook my head in defiance. "No! You haven't won this time Willow." I say out loud not caring anymore. 'Oh, but i have. Now, go away! I shook my head, this couldn't be, i was always stronger than Willow. I knew Ty being here would make everything worse, he was making her stronger. I couldn't have this. It wasn't going to end this way.

I glowered and looked up, "Somehow i will find a way to get rid of you Ty. Just watch." I sneer, and then clutch my eyes shut, leaning against the wall sliding to the floor.

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The next thing i knew i was on the ground clutching my head, which had a massive head ache going on. I groaned, and sat up, almost forgetting where i was. i looked up to see Ty, my mind went blank, and i gasped slightly. "shit." It was all i could say, i had actually won over Jay, but now Ty knew about me now about Jay...he would think i'm crazy. My eyes widened and i slowly stood.

I looked down to hide my face. "I....i understand fully if you don't want anything to do with me. Now that you know I'm...crazy." My voice was week, and it cracked a little when i said the last words. My hands were shaking, i clutched them and crossed my arms. Tears welled up in my eyes which were wider than ever still. "I..should..go." I started towards the door, my heart filling with dread.

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word count;425
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[ty]

Ty watched as Jay, or Willow or whoever she was at the time fought with herself. She was supposed to break him? What did she mean by that? Ty knew that he wouldn’t give up because he knew Willow was still there. Now he wanted to get Willow back.

He watched as she said that she was going to get rid of him. Why did she want to get rid of him. Even if it was a different person other than Willow, her other personality, they were still siblings.

When Ty watched as she slid down the wall he wondered if Willow was coming back. When he heard her talk and as she stood he ran over towards her. When she started towards the door her grabbed her shoulder behind and engulfed her into a hug. ”Willow, is it you?” he said softly. ”Willow, I’m here for you, I won’t leave you again” he said as he rested his head on her shoulder.


WORDS ;; 175ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; jay/willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

We have to find a better way
- - - Out of this tragedy - - -
As the battle rages on

My ears hear only screams
- - -This war is ours. - - -
Yes, I will see you,Through the smoke and flames

I close my eyes when Ty pulled me into a hug. I only nod slightly when he asks if who i am. Not able to create words. I wrap my arms around him awkwardly, and rest my my tear soaked cheek in the crook of his neck. The odd feeling of my cold skin against his warm skin. It took all my will power to not break into sobs. Tears ran down my cheeks, as i stayed there in that embrace. "I'm sorry Ty, i should have told you. I let my fear get the best of me. I shouldn't have been so stupid." I closed my eyes, i didn't want to let go of him.

"Its all my fault, i didn't stop her, me and Alex." My voice broke as i thought of the people that willow killed, the stupid gang she made. Alex and me splitting up. I held back a sob. "All those terrible things. i was to week!" I let go of Ty and shook my head. Then a thought came to my mind.

"No. this is what she wants, she wants me to feel week, to cry over her mistakes. Thats it." I shook my head, and wiped the tears from my face. then remembering where i was, my face burned up. I shook my head. "You..don't think h'm crazy do you?" I looked at Ty with worry. I hoped he didnt think i was crazy. what if he secretly didn't want to be near me? No, dammit Willow get a hold of yourself already, Ty isn't like that. "Never mind dumb question." I waved my hand, and shook my head.

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word count; 315
notes; Sorry its shit.
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[ty]

As Ty felt her nod saying that it was Willow he sighed. ”shhhhh, Its fine, you don’t need to explain yourself.” he said softly as he rested his hand on the back of her head. She needed him to be there for her. He would be, he would always be there for her, as much as he could anyways.

When Willow let go of him he sighed. Ty smiled when she asked if he thought that she was crazy. ”If your crazy, so am I” he said with a laugh. He smiled even more when she said that it was a dumb question. Of course it was. He could never think bad about his sister, although her other half, was a bitch. He would admit that. He hugged her again. ”Willow, I’m here for you, just know that” he said as he kissed the top of her head.

WORDS ;; 150ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; jay/willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

We have to find a better way
- - - Out of this tragedy - - -
As the battle rages on

My ears hear only screams
- - -This war is ours. - - -
Yes, I will see you,Through the smoke and flames

i cracked one of my famous half grins, and shook my head. "Your definitely not crazy." I liked the feeling of smiling, it was good to do it again. when Ty kissed the top of my head, i got that same warm fuzzy feeling i always got when i was happy. It was great to have him back finally. I smiled to myself, partially hoping everything was going to be okay, and Jay was never coming back. I knew that wasn't true though, Jay would come back, and try to tear everything apart again.

I sighed, and rubbed my hands not realizing how cold i felt. "This isn't over Ty. She'll try it again, and it will be worse than today. she knows you don't like to hit people, especially girls...she'll take advantage of that." I shake my head, i knew i would have to tell him this. "Needless to say she's a heartless bitch who won't care what she does." I pause for a moment. "If you ever doubt if its me in control. Ask me what my favorite color is. She doesn't pay attention to the small bits of information like that, and i don't let her share all my memories." I bit my lip.

"You probably don't need to hear this, but i can't risk losing you at all." My own protective instincts were already kicking in, i didn't know when she would come back, but for now she was gone.

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[ty]

Ty smiled when she said that he wasn’t crazy. He knew that. When she said that it wasn’t over he knew what was coming. ”Will, it won’t matter. She can come back all she wants, I’m not going to leave you. Ever. You know that and that’s all that matter. I need you and Lillie to be there. We all need each other. Then maybe we can get out of this shit hole and find a place to live.” he said as he hugged her tightly.

He had lost his sisters once, he wasn’t going to let that happen again. ”I can’t risk losing you either. I’ll fall back in with the gang, I know that. After this all I want to stay out, not go back” he said softly. He sat down on his bed and leaned against the wall.

WORDS ;;
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; jay/willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

"I-..okay." I smiled, i decided To drop what i was going to say. He said he wouldn't leave me, i wasn't going to question him about it. Ty would keep his word, like usual. i sighed and shook my head. I didn't like that Ty was still in that gang, i didn't like them at all. I had a good reason for it too. A thought came to my mind. I bit my lip then shook my head again.

I looked back up at Ty. "Do you think...." I closed my eyes. "Have..do you remember what Alex looks like?" I bit my lip playing with my left lip ring. "I was..hoping..maybe..." I took a breath. "Did he go back to the gang? Do you think you would have seen him?" I looked down, and put my hands in my pocket. It was a stupid question really, but i hated him not being here. I missed him. Even though i asked, i was pretty sure the gang would kill him if he came back, after he ditched them and all.

My heart sank deeper at that, what if he was dead? I closed my eyes tight, he couldn't be...i didn't know how i could live if i knew he was dead. I held my breath, waiting for Ty's reply. I really hoped he never went back to that gang. Or for sure i would never see Alex again.

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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[ty]

Ty smiled as she dropped the subject. When she began talking he looked over at her. When she asked if he remembered what Alex looked like. He thought for a minute. He vaguely remember what Alex looked like. Black hair, the usual right.

”If he’s like I remember, which isn’t much, then I don’t remember seeing him at the fight or the after party. Either of them he should have been at. When theres a major gang fight were all to go.” he said trying to remember.

”Come over here and sit” he said motioning to the bed. He didn’t want her just standing there freaking out. He cared about his sister, and would probably be extremely protective over her now. After all he had just gotten her back.

WORDS ;; 150ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; jay;willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

Even though Ty's answer should have made me feel better, it didn't at all. I didn't want to worry, but that was all i could do. I nodded slightly, but still felt distant. My thoughts still streaming, full of panic, making assumptions of things. I shook my head again, i was getting overwhelmed. Panic attacks happened to me often before, before i came here. I remembered them like vivid dreams. I had them at night usually, and they were of all kinds of things from my past.

I looked at the spot Ty motioned to when he told me to sit. I slowly made it over and sat on his bed, and looked down, playing with the silver locket on my neck. I sighed. "God, I just miss him so much." I shook my head, then smiled at Ty. "You two were great friends you know. Just like brothers. Always with each other." I shook my laughed lightly.

Together we made the three amigos so to say. That is whenever i was around to talk. I did my own thing after Lilli was taken, but i would always come around to say hi. I half wished Alex was here, and half wished he'd gone off to restart his life, get away from all this shit. That thought would be unlikely though, Alex enjoyed the wild life.

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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word count;240
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[ty]

Ty watched as she nodded. She seemed distant though. Like something was going wrong, but she wasn’t saying anything. Was Jay coming back? He didn’t know what to do anymore. Jay was scary. She was going to try to get him to hit her, and he couldn’t do that. He would be hitting Willow, he just had to remember that at all times. No matter how mad at Jay he got, it was Willow that would feel it.

Ty smiled as she finally sat down next to him. ”He’ll show up eventually. Whether its after were out of this place, or still in here and he joins us. He’ll show up. He has to” he said as he laid his head down on her lap.

”I always needed a brother” he said with a smile. That was one thing he always wanted, but would never get. A brother was impossible for him to get when his parents had always fought after having Lillie. Let alone he couldn’t handle taking care of Willow and Lillie.

WORDS ;; 175ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; willow;;jay
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;

[willow jayden shae]

Show me what it's like
- - - To be the last one standing - - -
And teach me wrong from right

And I'll show you what I can be
- - -Say it for me - - -
Say it to me

"I hope your write about that." I say biting my lip. I look down at Ty, who's head is now in my lap, and smile. I play with strands of his hair as i think. It wouldn't hurt to be a little optimistic. Maybe he would show up..you never know. I closed my eyes, and sighed. Optimistic...ya...i could do this...maybe. Ah hell..i wasn't optimistic one bit. Fat chance i was change now.

I laughed quietly, and looked back at Ty still playing with his hair. "You two were crazy together...i swear. pulling pranks out in the streets. It was like you were a kid for once." I pursed my lips, and looked off into space, letting thoughts drift into my head. Old memories.

i was what fifteen, and acting like a complete child, laughing running around..it was like i never got to experience that before. Which of course i most likely didn't. Maybe i had a small childhood before my dad drank. I wouldn't remember though...i would have only been two years old. a thought that always seemed to cross my mind, why did he start to drink? Was there a big reason, or was it just because? I shook the thoughts out of my head, and finally came back to reality Plain cold simple reality..

And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

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[ty]

Ty shut his eyes. He smiled as she said that she hoped that he was right. He had to be right, if she was telling the truth, then Alex loved getting in trouble as much as Ty did. It would land him in here, since he wasn’t to bad off.

Ty yawned and leaned his head against her stomach when he began to play with his hair. It was calming. Keeping his eyes open would be almost impossible right now. Ty smiled as she told him about pulling pranks. He had to act like a kid sometime.

Ty remembered, he had only been about four or five when his dad finally took to alcohol. That’s when all the trouble started. At least he waited until Ty was about seven to finally snap and beat people. Well their father only beat him and their mom. Ty shook at the memories. The horrible memories that were coming back about their dad.

How a man could stand to sit there and beat his own wife, the one he said he ‘loved’ was a mystery. Ty would never be able to understand. He hoped no one would try to make him understand either. He refused to hit people, he didn’t want to turn out to be his father. Hitting people because he could. He knew he was strong, the gang had done that to him.

WORDS ;; 250ish
STATUS ;; Finished
TAGGED ;; jay;;willow
OUTFIT ;; here
NOTES ;;